“It’s… distinct. Hard to tell, truly. Unless you know the smell that is. When I first interned at a pokelab, I did an experiment with it. Trying to see about replicating the explosion an electrode gives off. Mainly to see how powerful an Electrode’s explosion was. You don’t look like a scientist type, no offense ma’am.”

❝ Because you wanted to see how --- a what? An explosion’s already strong enough, but I’m assuming it’s for the sake of science, as they say in those tv shows. ❞ 

Trying to come to terms with the fact that because i am an female oc, reblogging memes and drawing blanks is normal, but today has been especially egregious for me. 

I’ve been having a horrible day because my parents really out there telling me that my efforts (despite my crippling anxiety) doesn’t matter and no matter how hard I may try I could never get any recognition for it. No thank you, just negative bullshit that about that I’m ‘ scared ‘. 

I’ve been in this constant struggle with this blog for awhile, on and off, on and off. At first, I really didn’t care if I only had a few people to rp with. It was to be expected given the nature of my blog and yotsuba as a muse. She’s a rarity -- and older female muse who isn’t really here for shipping and everything. I get it, most characters in the rp community are young people. I get that. 

Lately, I’ve been comparing my canon male muses (particularly Nanners and Settie) to Yotsuba. Yotsuba is of my own creation, I worked hard on her and her backstory. And hell -- I’m super proud of what I’ve done in the years that I’ve had her. And that is because people lend me their ear and let me have this platform to grow her. That is something that I hold dear to my heart. Canon muses are fun but nothing feels me feel prouder than the success of this blog. But I feel because they are male and canon muses they will get interaction even if i didn’t try. That’s just my inevitability. 

So this goes back to my real life struggles and rp. I want to interact with more people, but I feel that people are just either A) don’t know how to interact or B) just don’t want to interact. And my biggest solution to that is sentence starters! I’m terrible with making starters of my own, so this is probably the way to interact with me outside of plotting. But it just feels like my efforts are being ignored and frankly it makes me feel horrible. I cannot lower my expectations lower than just having one or two people rping with me.

You like Yotsuba? Then rp with her. 

RP is my escape, I want to drown myself in writing because it’s how I cope. I know it’s pathetic of me to say because I’m supposed to be this positive mentality of the fandom but even I have limits. 

@jai-nekri​ said:  ❝  i can smell gunpowder on you.  ❞ ---- miss sherlock sentence starters

Strange, she thought she did enough of a deep clean last night. Though with how recent her last mission was, it must have been too early to say. 496 waves a hand dismissively, wearing a nervous smile. 

Anonymous:  Are there any crossovers you’d be especially interested in writing? --- Munday Questions

@magonumberfive​ said:  2,4,6,8 for the vanilla meme

vanilla vanilla

2.  Is your muse a deviant? Are they overly flirtatious or forward?

I’d say she’s pretty flirtatious, but not sure if it’s overly so. If you’re attractive, she will point it out, man or woman. It rarely goes beyond that, but if the other person’s gonna flirt back at her? She will reciprocate if she is attracted to you too. 

4.  Does your muse initiate a lot of physical contact?

Very much so! Almost too physical at times. Sometimes she forgets that other people might not like physical interactions like that, and more often enough she is told that she’s stepping over boundaries. She learns the second time luckily! 

6.  Does your muse steal clothing from their partner?

If they fit her ---- yes. She might even cut it and style it too. 

8. Is your muse comfortable with, or proud of their body? Are they insecure?

Oh, crap, figures he was chatting her ear off while he got away… He cleared his throat and jumped to his feet, giving her an excited look as he looked from her to look around! …Then it sunk in.

“Uh… I have no idea who you’re looking for.”

❝ .... You’re looking for a man in his 30s with a teal alolan shirt and a small tattoo of a houndoom on his arm. ❞ She takes no breaks as she walks straight in the direction of the man in question. If she didn’t hurry, her superiors is going to give her and earful.