My never ending journey? TW!

When they all say you have gotten taller but the truth is that you have not grown at all and just have gotten skinnier

It has gotten so hard

guilt… it’s the worst

I want to die

My antidepressants side effects are so bad. Literally I can’t be anywhere, I feel so awful. I’d want to cry every second and it even more triggers my anxiety. Had to take xanax for it.

I haven’t got any time to post or actually I haven’t got energy for nothing. This month has been though. Hope it’s getting better

Going to take antidepressants

Going to therapy tomorrow

I hate myself so much. Most time the reason is my body but sometimes it is not and today is the day I hate myself because something else. But when the hate raises my wish to self harm also raises. My anxiety like kicks in my hand are shaking i can’t focus etc and the only thing I can get away this feeling is with self harm.

I love these “compliments” like you have gotten so small

Love that empty stomach

I wish I would have this honeymoon dieting again. Losing weight so fast and being on track

I did so well until I made an apple pie. I really don’t know even why I did it

I hope I can reach my one goal weight in this week. Manifesting it

Seeing someone close to you suffer from eating disorder signs is the saddest thing ever. My heart is broken.