Ellie

I will be beating every horse till I die

I open my mouth and feel an overwhelming nothing escape my throat

With no voice to scream out I resort to my hands

I reach out until I feel you pull away

My arms are forced to stop

My hands close and retreat to my side

With no voice and no touch I resort to your eyes

I glance over and see you looking back

I violently turn away

I find my feet moving before I can think

Fuck it isn't you pulling away it's me

Too terrified to speak to your hopeful eyes

Too scared to grab your arms like you so easily hold mine

Can't even look you in the eye

So no it isnt your fault it's completely mine

It's my little words that cant escape

The stupid things I cant erase

I hope you don't feel me pulling away

I hope you know you're all I see

The one I hold so close to my heart

I wouldn't forgive myself if you saw it otherwise

For you to leave and not stay in touch

For you not knowing I'd kill to hear another word from you

To see your smile and the way your eyes look into mine

To hear you laugh and watch as your face turns red

Oh to look into your eyes for eternity

But all I do is look away

Everything to say

But here I am with nothing at all

A year will pass as the leaves will fall

And seeing me shitpost to the max with absolutely no one seeing my posts

Tumblr seeing the amount of shitposts ive made

I mean its extremely gay either way but completely different genres

While im short haired, lesbian woman, loud