ezra.

I’m a socially inept faggot.

I live by the ideas of Osamu Dazai’s No Longer Human.

Don’t usually use tumblr for much except for fucking around in my free time. Every time you talk to me you’ll get a different version of me depending on my mood and the way I desire to be perceived, so don’t be surprised if this blog has little to no theme in terms of the ideas on here.

DNIs (because that’s important to list first, apparently).

Tr*mp supporters & defenders.

I really hope I don’t have to explain this one, but we don’t get along. I make political jokes that yall won’t appreciate and in turn I don’t appreciate your denial of reality.

Sanists/ableists/racists/homophobes/etc.

I myself am quite severely mentally ill and queer and am surrounded by marginalized people every day, all of whom I love dearly- so don’t even go there with anything that could compromise the integrity of myself and those I surround myself with.

“Dark” humorists.

I don’t mean people who joke about death. I mean people who think rape, pedophilia jokes are funny

Now that the human trash is out of the way, I’ll get into who I am.

To begin with, I am mentally ill and that’s important to say upfront because there’s people that aren’t gonna agree with or like me.

Borderline personality disorder is a disorder characterized by severe difficulty with controlling, regulating, or limiting emotional impacts on social and emotional interactions with the self or others. It also results in struggles with the concept of identity, relationships, and rational thinking. I say this because my views on friendships and relationships can and have offended people. Either understand that mental illness causes my perception to be different than yours, or fuck off.

I’ve also been struggling with high functioning depression and anxiety for around 4 years, so these too will impact my life.

Ugh… I know, I hate talking about the negative parts of myself, too. Here’s some hobbies and shit.

Hobbies:

Kandi making.

Yes, I am a “Kandi kid”. I like making Kandi and if I do make you Kandi it is an utmost symbol of respect and kindness. Like how penguins give stones, I give overly intricate and unnecessary bracelets.

Writing.

I am a writer. I genuinely enjoy writing and spend a lot of time working on my best works. I pride myself on my writing and there are few people whom I’ve seen have better writing than me objectively. Those who write better than me I have immense respect but also wicked jealousy for, hence why I fight to be the best writer on this earth. If I am good at something, I must be the best, as unreachable as it is.

Political activism.

Holy shit, fuck you all who think politics is meaningless or that you can’t make a change. You fucking can, and you people ARE the problem.

Music.

I’m a classically trained violinist, though I don’t play much more anymore due to things I associate with the instrument. However, I still keep my passion for music, write lyrics, and hope to one day produce some sort of music.

Fandoms:

Bungo Stray Dogs.

I love BSD and it’s been a lifesaving part of me for a good while. I am always up to talking about it and I really enjoy the story writing of it.

Ace attorney.

This is the first fandom space I entered, and shit. It saved my life, brought me intense joy, and jump started my writing career. I love Narumitsu, and it is still my favorite ship in the world. It is such a complex universe I’d kill for.

Project Sekai.

I don’t play too much, but consider myself decently good at the game. I full combo most masters, and full combo most masters under level 30 with thumbs. I’m also tiered top 1000 in the Rui event.

Genshin Impact.

I don’t play much anymore because of burnout, but I am on occasion a Venti kin, am wickedly obsessed with pre-Natlan lore, and really used to love it in a way that cannot be erased. I’ll always be happy to talk about it.

Honkai: Star Rail.

I’m only getting into it, but I really love Cipher and Aventurine.

Yuri!!! On Ice!.

I really enjoy this anime, especially Yuri Plisetsky’s role. He’s very “me” sometimes. A very well written character, and he’s quite amusing. This is my comfort show.

There are a couple other fandoms I’m into to a lesser degree like Cookie Run: Kingdom, Vocaloid, Sanrio, Monster High.

My kins are too complicated to explain in a post. Fuck you for expecting more.