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-Imagine how cute oversized sweaters are going to look on top of your thin legs 

-Now imagine legwarmers 

-Having pumpkin spice latte on an empty stomach without guilt 

-You get all the freedom to choose your Halloween costume, since fat is not holding back your choices anymore 

-Back to school day won't be nerve-breaking, but exciting instead as you keep hearing how small you have gotten 

-Walking on the dry leaves without breaking them 

-Your face will look so small between the cozy beanies and scarves. 

-Walking from class to class without getting out of breath 

-Thigh-knee socks under pleated short skirts

Maybe they'll make me dinner after my shift, instead of asking what's for dinner.

Maybe they'll tuck a blanket around my shoulders instead of handing me another responsibility.

Maybe they'll stop saying,

"You'll be okay."

Maybe they'll finally believe me when I say I'm exhausted.

Because somehow, tired wasn't enough.

Hurt wasn't enough.

Crying wasn't enough.

My pain had to become visible.

It had to settle into my bones,

show up in my face,

and hang from my clothes

Because apparently if I looked okay, I must be okay.

That pain didn't count unless it showed up