2 year anniversary! and an update
first of all thank you to everyone whos been supporting my comics! it means the world to me :) i really appreciate your support through everything
to start off with. im definitely not a professional when it comes to this. i did do comic for 4 years a long long time ago but it... urgh. ANYWAYS. i dont feel great. all of the sudden hiatuses and delays. built up a patreon buffer for my return and immediately lost it. its not great. i think its me, i think thats the issue. not to be too self deprecating.
ive been working on fading starlight since january 2020. i first started publishing the actual comic on october 31st 2023. and the.... actual prologue started being posted like 3 months ago. so it has been several years since i started this project, and a LOT has happened in my life since. my past self is unrecognizable to me, and these ocs are officially old. theyre actually older than the 2020 version - this is the catified version of the prequel of my old comic, back from march 2015. so these guys are REALLY old. and basically, i dont really. i dont feel connected with them as much as i was.
im from the us, i was living in texas for several years. but im also a transgender poc. sooo. two years ago i fell in love with my special amazing perfect wonderful husband, who lives in canada, and in april of this year i officially moved up! but the immigration process has been very slow and hard. but notably: i cant legally work. which means that a. all of my income now is from commissions, but b. i am in my apartment constantly. constantly at my computer.
and YET. and YET i cannot seem to maintain a buffer. i cant keep a proper update schedule. aside from how ive been having to prioritize commission work, even without that, ive been unable to bring myself to work on this comic despite having literally no job or other obligations. and i realized every single week id wake up and id be like "oh god, i have to work on the fucking comic" "ugh, i have to draw my comic" "fuck, i have to do my comic" and im realizing, thats not normal. because also i dont "have" to work on the comic. and ive taken this like, month and a half? idk? off and its just been a weight off my shoulders.
its made me realize i dont think i like doing this the way i should. i want to!!!!! i really want to make this comic. i felt this way before and i thought if i just pushed through the stupid awful beginning section that was honestly torturous for ne to work on, that id suddenly enjoy it. but it hasnt happened. but it sucks!!! because i really do want to tell this story. and i love making comics. i WANT to do this but i also like hate it so much.
this story was going to be at least 30 chapters, with a sequel. and its been 2 years and im on page 4. so at the rate im going im gonna be working on this into my 40s. and the fact is im already feeling like, disconnected from these guys, my "old" ocs. i dont even know if im gonna be interested in doing this 2 years from now. and this is when im unemployed!! if im barely pumping out pages when i have literally endless time, hows that gonna work when i get a full time job, or go back to school? its not feasible.
so, this is weird, and unorthodox, and potentially confusing down the line, but like i said im no professional and i cant pretend to be one.
im splitting the story in half.
because of the reasons listed above, but in addition, in the halfway point of the story Something happens. and back when i was younger and eviller i was fine with it but now? now it just makes me fucking sad. but i cant Cut it because its a huge catalyst for the next half of the book. so then i was like. what if there is no next half? what if i change that thing, and the story ends there?
i still really LIKE the original story though. and i still want to make content for it (if i ever get around to it. lol) i want to make art of what happened in the original story, but that would also be confusing right.
so going forth, the fading starlight comic (fsc) is the new canon. its going to be around 15 chapters give or take, but i do want to touch up the script so the end doesnt come so abruptly. i will put notes in the description for all art that follows the fsc.
for any art i make that follows the OLD canon, that will just be fading starlight, or fs. im debating on whether i will put any content of it here, or keep it separate to minimize confusion. but if i do end up making content for that it will also have a disclaimer stating that it is not the fsc, and not canon.
my first comic was canceled, and comics get canceled all the time for a myriad of reasons. im going to try my hardest to see this one through, though, and i think doing this will make it more likely that i can do so.
again thank you all so much for the support on this project. love u guys
