Diary of a 18Year Old Girl

Hi this is my first post and I made this just to vent because every time I vent to someone it always gets out so now this will be my outlet

Sooo is it crazy to write ur college essay on bkdk orrr what??? cuz that’s the only thing that has changed my entire structure of my thoughts and life, without trauma dumping and sounding like every other sad story

Soooo update on the boyfriend thing he broke up with me, he said that I gave up on him because I don’t do the same things I used to do for him and that the only one putting in effort was him and you know what else he said he said that I look like I’m tired of him every day which maybe I do look like that but not for that reason I was js really restraining myself from him but if that’s what he thought than I mean it’s ok cuz idk I could keep it up any longer but I genuinely did love him and the fact that he broke up with me over text was crazyyyy while I was sleeping 💔💔

My bf doesn’t know how to kiss and now it’s hard for me to make out with him or even js kiss him it gets so awkward , I told my friend what happened and they snitched to him, (ps. I did talk a lil shi abt the kissing) he was so mad at me and I understood cuz I would be too but I was js frustrated cuz we’ve been together for 7months and we haven’t made out or done anything like that AT ALL but I can’t tell him this because ik this is his first relationship and not mine and I js want him to be comfortable but I have my needs too. I have waited so long for him to be completely comfortable with me to do something but he still is hesitant, it’s so aggravating like ugh, like yea ik im a bad person yall don’t gotta tell me but he lowkey pissing me off like crazy