fading away

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I know exactly what the rules are and I can distinguish right from wrong just fine. The difference is that I don't feel guilt or remorse if I choose to ignore them.

​If I hurt you, it was intentional, not a misunderstanding of ethics. There is a massive difference between lacking a conscience and lacking awareness.

I’m perfectly capable of recognizing what’s wrong, not caring about it, but still choosing not to do it.

Also, I'm fully aware of the rules, I just can simply sometimes view them as optional if they don't serve my goals or stupid.

​It’s not: "I didn’t know."

But mostly : "I knew, I didn't care, and I moved forward anyway."

​My behavior is a reflection of my intent, not a lack of awareness. We are talking about an anomaly of affect (like guilt, empathy...etc), not an anomaly of intellect or logic

i literally have zero opinion of you

"you seem mad. its okay lol, i know that youre just denying that you really do want connection and you do care! ill help you"

i do NOT desire anything with anyone how is that so strange and impossible to understand

"lol youre so weird. stoic but everyone knows you got feelings and loneliness in there. i know youre shy, but ill help its ok dont be scared"

just kill me at this point..

Galaxy Café - food service facility in the Boston Museum of Science - Boston, MA (1990's)

Maybe a bit of Googie influence in the sculptural element

Designed by Prellwitz / Chilinski Associates, Inc.

Do not use the website called Sci-Hub!

It lets people access scientific articles for free. This is dangerous. It helps the free flow of knowledge and reduces the competitive edge of all the people who worked really hard to have been born into a wealth.

Like, it’s literally a website where you can type in the DOI of an article and read it, without ever having to pay the publisher who exploited the author.

​That's basically how it is, yes, but it's not all black and white either.

​I have a functional, logical approach to social interaction, so obviously I gain nothing from being a heartless jerk.

​However, there are exceptional situations. If someone close to me had a problem tomorrow, I wouldn't emotionally empathize with them, it's true. But I can be annoyed a bit to see someone I care about being in a bad mood.

​It's also a matter of interest to some extent, I have an interest in not letting a fun person become depressed. I don't necessarily like it when people are in a bad mood in general, that's pretty annoying.

​Following the same logic, if I hurt someone I actually care about or someone useful, I can have a sense of awareness and be like, "shit." No, I wouldn't actively feel bad about it, but if I know I fucked up, I can try to be slightly more tender with them to smooth things over if I really value them.

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