once . . .

this is a post that is very hard to make and one that i have avoided making in my years on and off this site writing. i have so many thoughts on my muses all the time and i have loved becoming friends with new people and seeing everything you all create. unfortunately, i’m at a point in my life where i have a lot going on in my family and there is as we all know a lot going on in america and with all of it my mental health has crashed and burned and it’s something i have to work on every single day. as much as i love writing, logging on to this site gives me so much anxiety to the point where i have to get off very shortly afterward. right now i need to focus on the things that bring me peace, and that hasn’t been roleplay in quite some time, which is really really hard for someone who has been roleplaying on this site on and off since 2014.

i have always found myself coming back here after taking any kind of break, even feeling like maybe I shouldn’t, because i freaking love my longtime moots. those of you who followed me between many hawk remakes, or even before those who followed my puck blogs or my hsm blogs or any other blog i have made, have been what kept me wanting to come back the most. i have made some of my closest friends on this site and i am so grateful for that. right now though, i need to take a long break and that long break might be a forever break. for now i’m going to focus on my family and on my mental health and doing what makes me happy rn. i won’t be deleting my blogs because last time i did that i regret it a lot because i like to look back on my writing from time to time, but i will be logged out of my rp blogs.

if you want to keep in touch, you can find me on discord. i’ve been focusing a lot on video games particularly d.ead b.y d.aylight, st.ardew v.alley, dr.eamlight v.alley and r.esident e.vil, so if anyone else games and wants to chat about games the discord is available for that too. for long time writing partners, i am always down to write in a server if you’re cool with the fact that i can be slow sometimes and stupid fast other times. i’ve also been trying to watch more movies so if you also like movies, this is my l.etterboxd. and if we have been friends for a long time across blogs, you can ask for my other socials if you’d like, even though i’ve cut back a lot outside of discord and scrolling t.iktok.