Eye dream awake

Reminder... do not confuse attention, with intention.

Maybe I am destined to live my life dedicating myself to people who just won’t reciprocate the same effort and feelings. To love and feel unloved. That is my reality.

SOMETIMES you lose by taking risks, but you ALWAYS lose by holding back.

And here you are, continuing on, despite how hard it’s been.

I'll leave you breathless and quivering from relief. Healed body and soul. Let me know when you are ready.

Weeping is not the same thing as crying, It takes your whole body to weep, and when it’s over, you feel like you don’t have any bones left to hold you up.

Sadness is just a wall between two gardens.

I haven’t posted much and expected this blog to die. Instead I find it still growing and I come here and find loving messages and prayers from people I’ve never met. Thank you for all the beautiful and kind words. Please know that your presence on this planet is so welcome. I hope for all of you, that you never feel left out or abandoned. I wish nothing but a life full of peace. May you always feel a sense of contentment and joy. You are worthy of good, may you always find it when you need it.

A love that is giving, unselfish, generous, and so wise. Wise in every sense of the word. A man that leads, whom I can support and encourage while he leads me spiritually with wisdom and ultimately through life. A man who is going to respect me and value me how I deserve. That has a desire to build trust and see the importance to put in the efforts to rebuild it by taking actions that demonstrate that. Honoring what I need to feel safe and secure in that. That demonstrate a care for my heart and all the heart wrenching, mental anguish, and physical pain I have been through. That makes me feel confident and secure in his presence and when he is not near. That sees my worth and cherish it, and never take it for granted. A man that is humble, and shares his flaws and struggles with me so that I can be able to encourage, support, and pray for him. A man that daily surrenders his pride to the Lord in order to be the best that he can be for not only himself, but for me, and us. That is not ill tempered and only knows how to express harsh uncaring words and his bad emotions. That is willing to communicate. Be lighthearted and make me laugh daily. That is supportive, attentive, affectionate, protective of me, and gives me the same grace God has given him. A man that is honest to the core. Who is consistent, faithful and steady. That is present and focused on me when connecting physically and emotionally. A man that truly loves God above all and is committed in growing in Him, and ultimately, with me as one. Thank you God for teaching me and reminding me that I shouldn’t just work on myself in hopes to be the best I can be and give to someone, but to also watch carefully, and chose for me only what will match my effort, help me grow, protect me, love me uncondionally, and nurture my heart and spirit. A man who is mature and unwavering in his commitment so that I can feel strong and confident and relaxed to maintain a household for him that is peaceful and harmonious and filled with joy and fun for us. So I can give the best of me to my family so they can thrive daily. That is the kind of person I should devote myself to.

You were never unworthy, some people are just selfish and don’t see beyond themselves and what they need. Jesus did not walk through life hurting people and throwing them away. He loved deeply, love is the main message he leftvus with. Go and give love abd if you find people who love you deeply be kind to them and appreciate them, that is where many people fail. You were loving and wonderful. I could have used a person like that in my life. Xo

I know u will not read this but I’ve had u in my prayers. Life isn’t fair. - T

You open the page again then you closed. I wanted to read past I can’t believe it RIP ❤️

The certainty that comes with knowing you are loved. I have felt that. I never thought I would one day feel the certainty that comes with knowing the very opposite.