my regrets

hmm, I can probably work with soft touching for the first time. I’m not too big on just smut I think its kinda gross but having them sorta get out of their comforts zones to try something beautiful with each other in a healthy way sounds alright with me. It won’t be too explicit sorry but I’ll try my very best.

Depends what I’m comfortable with but ill try my best!!Also thank you so much!

Ryan off the bat is bigger in size than Matt and also buys hoodies a size up. When ever Matt wears them however it’s ridiculously baggy for him and makes Ryan laugh a lot. Matt gets hoodies that fit him pretty well and whenever Ryan wears them it’s a little too fitting for him. He’s a bit insecure even now about his body and doesn’t like too much of it being displayed or outlined I guess is the way of saying it(?) but Matt’s cool windbreakers that he wears actually fit Ryan Real Well (at least I think they would.) Ryan doesn’t like bright colors or anything flashy but just standing in the mirror with something so fashionable(?) kinda boosts his confidence and motivation got out and get something nice and extra for himself. Sadly Matt has never seen Ryan in his clothes, Ryan’s still a little shy and embarrassed about it even by himself. Matt on the other hand probably comes to work in Ryan’s old clothes, hickeys, beanies, hats, and hoodies. Matt has a general idea when Ryan puts off doing laundry and takes his last clean hoodies and shirts so Ryan can take it off of him before he does do the laundry. It drives Ryan crazy but they’re both not complaining. (Short and fast sorry!)

Matt’s got his bags all ready to go and he was texting Tucker a small lists of instructions on how to care for Banana. Matt had his stupid bright orange windbreaker and Skinny jeans on looking like some kind of fashion experimental high schooler. Ryan left work just a bit early to say goodbye to Matt and was afraid he wasn’t going to catch him in time. Matt left the front door with his luggage rolling behind him. Just at the elevator and out of breath Ryan Magee bursted out. They locked eyes with each other and Matt was a bit surprised but lit up when he saw his friend. Ryan knew what he was going to say, he had it all written out in his head but it all flew out of his ears and was at a loss for words. “Hey man.” Matt said shoveling his phone in his front pocket. “Hey Matt.” Ryan was a bit busy gaining air but looking into each other’s eyes would suffice for now. The elevator doors began to shut and Ryan stepped out clearing his throat.“I came to say goodbye to you.”“I won’t be gone for long Ryan.”“Yeah I know but, I wanted to say I hope 2018 is better for the both of us.” Matt couldn’t help but smile.“Can’t agree more bud.” Matt gave Ryan a hug even though he was a little sweaty. Ryan didn’t complain and wrapped his arms around Matt. It was short and sweet.“I’m going to be real here Ryan.” Matt paused. “I think we both need to close something off before 2017 dies.”Ryan nodded and knew exactly he was talking about. “Matt I-“, Ryan cut himself off. Matt went for his opportunity and locked his lips with Ryan’s. His hands were on Ryan’s shoulders and Ryan found his hands cupping Matt’s face. There was no cameras, no pressure, no people, no phone calls from home, no comments, no nothing. Only the two of them. It was gentle and so reassuring. Even though some one could have exited their apartment at any given time they both just held onto each other so dearly in these mere few seconds. With hearts pounding and flushed faces they broke away from each other to only go out in a fit of laughter. Right then and there they had a gut feeling 2018 would bring them happiness, together.

(Sorry for the late reply anon!)This took me a while to digest! I spent a lot of time with people who would constantly vomit and there’s a certain pressure point on the wrist that’ll some how temporarily take a little bit of the nausea away. Ryan could be pulling up a video or maybe an article on wikiHow on how to preform that. Just holding Matt’s hand and really trying to feel the sensitive area and checking in if he’s hurting Matt or not. They aren’t very close but Ryan has large warm hands and it relaxes him. Matt probably would be so tried that he can’t really tell the difference from the hand massage but he does appreciate Ryan’s efforts. There’s also little patches and oil that can be applied to the area behind the ear that really help with nausea as well. Matt would probably just have a pale discomforted face but Ryan could definitely apply the patch then tickle him or tell him something like “bazinga” when he’s finished to get an eye roll and a chuckle. Ryan keeps a little timer to make sure every two hours Matt takes some off the counter medicine so he doesn’t forget. Ryan buys Ritz Crackers and apple sauce for Matt so he can snack on them throughout the day. It’s not much but at least Matt will eat it until it all subsides. It’s been forever since Matt could just kick back and chow down on prime childhood food. Later that night, Matt has that look on his face, his palms and head are sweating up. Matt warns Ryan in advanced that he’s goin to throw up. Matt starts to gagging and looks like he might even be crying. Ryan brings over a plastic bag and puts an arm around Matt. Matt reaches over with super shaky hands and even holds onto Ryan’s wrist just so he didn’t go away. He does end up vomiting it wasn’t much but Matt had to drink juice and brush his teeth. Ryan even got a bath ready for him just so he can stop being all shaky and jittery. Ryan explains in the most down to earth yet comedic way on how Matt looked while he was vomiting. Matt and Ryan both agree that it was disgusting and smelled horrible but it made Matt feel a little better that he went out in a funny way and nothing too hideous. He’s still terrified of vomit but it’s significantly decreased when Ryan is around. (I know it’s short but I didn’t really how to go about writing it so here a good chunk of nice little snippets of what you would expect from me.)

Phone doodle 👀

Ryan opened his mouth as if to say something but Matt was too busy stuffing his face with Ryan’s lips. They both closed their eyes and smiled into their soft tender kiss.

I write n doodl ryatt stuff. Please send me requests!! I don’t have an Ao3 and most of my fics are real short so I don’t see much of a need for it.