The story continues with the Two of Wands:
Now, this guy, the one who is putting up with me (assuming I am the anxious depressed one from the beginning) has met me and is now standing firmly, decided, looking towards the horizon as if planning something towards the future with pride and excitement.
It's like he has found a cause, and sees huge potential, perhaps in me, and he is looking forward to putting that potential into action.
He has this vision and is committed. This vision is of course in development and it's slowly maturing into something hopeful while this new relationship develops. I feel like he has this great vision and expectations towards the relationship, towards this broken person. He worries about what has to be done in any way so that the relationship goes on the right track. There is a desire to go forward together, reaching new goals and new emotions, after all the number two is always about partnership.
Despite all this, "two" represents a decision or dilemma that must be resolved. Here comes the conflict:
III of Swords: The Heartbreak
Don't ask me how I know but when I saw the two of cups card I instantly knew what the story was about. As if I had already lived it, the next card to come out did not surprise me, not one bit, but it did make me sad, and bitter, like remembering a distant memory I had already erased from my thoughts.
The heart in this card is a symbol of emotions, the piercing swords reflect the capacity and power of the intellect and logic to harm the physical body and emotions of a person. It's a dark, sad time. It is certainly a painful moment, their hearts and emotions are haunted by one or more things that have taken them to their emotional limit.
But you see, the young, beautiful, golden-haired page is strong and alive, so at the same time, there is a positive message, because I know he is going to be fine. If we compare him to the first card, the 9 of Swords, which showed me a woman, she's brunette, with her head in her hands, sitting on her bed, she appears to be crying, she is obviously going through emotional distress. Behind this girl, who I can't help but identify with, are 9 swords, at the base of my bed is decorated with a carving of a duel, in which one person has been defeated by another...The quilt that covers her bed is decorated with roses and silhouettes of astrological symbols that indicate that, to a greater or lesser extent, we will all go through these painful situations in life. Everything that surrounds her is fear and despair, she's in constant anguish.
Then comes the 3 of Swords, which for me, is a direct cause of the 9 of Swords and the mental and emotional deterioration that it has had in the relationship that has caused her life to be flooded with sadness and therefore has caused this block of love to be expressed. Usually, there is an element of an event that was not expected, something that took them by surprise, that was not in their plans, it not only refers to heartbreak, but the pain can also come from other tragic circumstances, such as illness or death of a loved one.
By this point, the story I know has already been told, but there's more, another page appears, a new beginning, the page of pentacles, which again represents a young person, who's this time contemplating a large coin. The young man who finds himself alone, in a field full of newly bloomed flowers, with a forest of leafy trees, and fruit trees of some kind, and to his left, there is a newly sown field that promises a bountiful harvest.
The young man walks slowly, not paying attention to everything around him, except the gold coin in his hands which he examines closely, the bright sky above him suggesting that all is well in his world and that this is a quiet, dedicated moment, to planning his path to success.
The coins represent the element of the earth ( Capricorn, Taurus, Virgo) in this sense the coin symbolizes the beginning of the consciousness of things, it is awareness.
There is awareness of the sensuality that he can re-discover, one being of the material forms, in terms of money and its value, as well as an awareness of his physical health and other non-material things in life such as love.
He is a person with concerns, learning something of great value to him, so he will always put his best commitment and his concentration to his maximum, in whatever he is doing or looking for...
But, I'm sorry, is this the same Page, my curious, witty, chatty, communicative, inspired, mental, heartbroken airy golden Page? And why is the 4th of Cups showing now? Apathy, contemplation, feeling disconnected, melancholy, boredom, indifference, discontent????? This young man is now sitting under one of his fruity trees, with his arms and arms crossed seemingly contemplative. He is going through introspectivity. Not being aware of not being interested in the three cups that are in front
of him, these represent the earthly world and the worldly flashy attractions that has to offer him, but neither the cup that's being offered to him by the spiritual the divine ( divine feminine). He isn't paying attention to these offerings, he is sure the answers he seeks won't be found inside. His external influences could be distracting him or could not lead him to the goal he seeks.
Like Buda under the Bohdi Tree contemplating the state of the universe, ready to ascend into the truth. He isn't taking the cup, perhaps because he isn't aware, or isn't paying attention, he doesn't see or accept the gift of love, of opportunity because he is completely inside himself.
On another note, this could be me who is going through a period of apathy, disconnection, isolation, and boredom. Nothing seems to entertain me. It's telling me how bored I am of routine.
I know it's important to look inside to find the true answers I seek to what's happening and what I'm feeling but....
