Would you kindly?

who up wanting something they can never have

...and then there was you.

i love sleeping i love being unconscious

I don’t want anyone to look at you the way I do

It’s so fucking difficult to breathe when it’s the only thing you don’t want to do.

there’s a void in my heart that nothing can fill

i’m sick of being left behind. i’m sick of trusting someone who ends up hurting me. i’m sick of people getting over me so goddamn fast. i’m sick of the way everyone is so much happier without me. i’m sick of being used. i’m sick of missing people who are doing just fine without me. i’m sick of never being good enough to make someone stay. i’m so sick of myself.

The only thing that comforts me is that fact that I could just kill myself tomorrow and won’t have to worry about another thing again.

In my opinion some things that break you just break you. There’s no learning, no getting strong, no character development, nothing. It’s like when you fold a piece of paper, it will always have a crease no matter what you do. You are never quite the same again. All you are is hopelessly, painfully and brutally broken

fucking hate that broken brain feel when u finally get something uve been wanting and craving ur whole life and instead of just feeling happy and validated you also have to feel violently uncomfortable because your brain starts blaring at u that this isnt real and no one really cares about u so dont get comfortable or used to this or else itll hurt that much more when it inevitably is taken from u because people like u dont get to be happy

I‘m terrified of the way you never know what’s going on inside of someone else. They care, then they just don‘t. They make promises, then they break them. They love you, then they hurt you. You never know what’s coming and none of it seems to be in your control. All you can do is accept their decision, pick up the pieces and try to move on.

i care too much, i think too much, i feel to much. everything i do, i do too much. yet, somehow i’m never enough

I think one if the saddest things is when you don’t want anything anymore. You’re not in despair, you know you’re not alone, you know it can get better, but you dont want any of it. You’re just tired of living. I’m not sure if anyone can really help at that point.