sometimes it feels like you're at a party, and you've been there for a while now and you've seen a few friends, had a few drinks-- you were really enjoying yourself at one point but now you're kind of tired and your feet hurt. so you try to get up and leave, and say you're tired, but everyone around you is begging you to stay just a little longer. because this one person hasn't arrived yet, or a new game is going to start; the party will just get better as the night goes on. so you stay anyway, and the exhaustion seeps into you so deeply that you can't even be bothered to try and leave the party yourself, so all you can really do is hope that someone else kicks you out
















