Ex Nihilo

hello. Ex Nihilo is a comic about the number zero and what his life is like, along with his friends, the numbers from one to nine. if you wanna meet all of them, you can do that here.

currently i'm writing Sanguis Ex Nihilo, a longform comic about Zero going through some stuff.

sometimes comics will be about the numbers and their daily routine of being numbers and helping to count things or make equations or other silly stupid math puns i try to think of.

other times you get to see their lives as individuals and just see how they all hang out together. if you want to see a specific character, they will be tagged in every drawing they appear in.

and then OTHER other times this blog will just be a space for me to express myself in other ways, making weird as hell drawings or creepy unsettling things that i want to get out of my brain, or sometimes just drawing fan art for a thing i like.

in any case, this is a safe space for everyone who maybe feels like they were born maybe not positive or negative, maybe not odd or even, maybe not rational or irrational, real or complex, but just some other thing in its own category, somewhere on the number line.

(calligraphy done by the very talented @noctuamagna)

(Latin assistance by @volumina-vetustiora)

im a little scared, but i dont know why

Today marks Four years since i started drawing again, and i worry i dont have much to show for it since last year. I havent published anything since November, and i blame a lot of my fear, shame, and tiredness for that.

I dont remember if i talked about this much last March, but my mom died right before 2024 ended. 2025 has been basically me coping with the fact that my incredibly small extended family has been reduced of its binding force. i continue to have no real connection to my siblings, like before. i continue alone, with only the family ive created, and the friends i long for in the future keeping me moving forward.

being on my phone and reading again and work and family have been very effective distractions when it comes to me realizing why ive not been drawing at all. i told myself once i get a new computer, itll be easier to produce art, and it has been a bit motivating, but ultimately im too scared to try. all year ive been trying to figure out "what am i scared of?" im scared of failure, im scared of my demise at my own hand which i could have prevented but chose not to due to my own cowardice or blindness.

i have hope for the future and that someone is waiting for my success with open arms. its all i have. i promise you that i will try harder to continue the story of numbers and nothingness that i started. if i can do at least one drawing a week, ill feel more satisfied than the months ive not done anything at all. i dont feel depressed, but it feels more like anhedonia. i dont know how to feel happy anymore.

by next march, i will make more of part 1 of sanguis done. maybe part 1 will be finished entirely! i dont have it all pinned down, but it takes around 60 chapters for all of part 1 to be told. even if part 2 has a hard time getting started, part 1 should have a good ending.