Existing

Sana sa isang idlap ng aking mga mata mawala lahat.

People will always be willing to help you out, it’s just that they won’t always be there when you need them.

Can you please hug me and tell me everything will be okay? You were always good at that. You always made me feel safe. 

Other people seem to know what’s best for me.. Why don’t you live my life for me then?

You don’t text people in the middle of the night and just like do that and then when they reply to you.... you... you don’t respond. 

I’m so down and broken right now I can’t even write.

I lost you. and I think it’s for the best.

I guess you’ll never know how that moment truly felt.

Maybe I always wanted you to be there.

You gambled with her and not with me.

Maybe I was too dependent on you. You don’t know how much I just want to let you go and be free of this confusing feeling you have left in my chest. 

How can you even say that things won’t change when you already did.

I come back here every time I know no one will listen.

Heaven knows I’ve been asking for signs..

I’m torn between ending it and just taking a break. 

Gusto ko lang ng kausap.