Devi

we were hiking today. it got really steep with rocks and i said “i don’t know if i can let this support go” so my guy coworker (he’s married and a gentleman) said “let me be your rock instead” and extended his hand. i took it and he guided me down but damn bitch that simple ass act reminded me of my ex. to be supported and taken care of even when you least expect it is a blessing and so rare to find. i haven’t found it again.

2 day cycle is insane wtf did i do to deserve this hell

i’m falling

being gaslit when i tell the truth is why i stopped telling the truth with family because they’ll always believe a lie and this stupid ass cycle has haunted me my whole life

life is so wild

why is god always testing me like please i’m tired

my whole job is a fever dream

for the first time this birthday my mom didn’t say “may you get married to a rich man” she said “may you get married to a man that loves you and takes care of you” it made me emotional because she finally understands how important that is over a materialistic lifestyle.

can’t believe i’m 30