Truly, I can't thank God enough for all He has done throughout this trip. 😢 Through the ups and downs, He pulled me through it all. Without being in the comfort of home, family and friends, He brought me comfort, letting me know that He has everything in control. He knew I was lonely, He brought me friends and I found myself having a 'home' here. I found belonging here, I found God here. He taught me to remember His promises to me, He taught me to remember that what He says, He will do. That if He have done it once, He could do it again. Honestly, when you draw near to God, He draws near to you too. Maybe I didn't really put in my all, I didn't do my frequent TAWG, but I attended church almost every week, I read devotionals every now and then, I pray, I worship, I spend time with fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. It is something I long for, to find myself wanting to belong and feeling that I belonged, that I actually do matter. I found people that cared about me, that tries to get me into conversations even though I am always super awkward and quiet among people. I found people that just knew Christ and have their life changed, getting baptized in less than a year after knowing Christ. Their heart and souls were burning for Jesus, that passion for God was just so overwhelming that it impacted me a lot. First time in my life, I broke down at the altars, allowing people to pray for me, allowing myself to be broken, allowing myself to release my hurts to God, and being healed in the process of it all. Maybe the pain and hurt still lingers, but knowing that God knows and is concerned, I am truly at peace. Father Lord, today I just pray that You will keep these ways, revelations and promises deep in my heart Lord. Engraved them deep within my heart, soul and mind, make it the anchor of my soul, that I may stop wandering and wondering, that I could put my eyes on You and only You. To trust in Your plans, that all will be okay, and that truly only You matter and You are enough for me. I pray Lord, that going back home will not be a going back to a place where I feel uncomfortable that all will be same old same old, but really, I pray that You will set a fire in me to want to belong back at home too, and find a place where I could belong, that I actually mattered. Lord, You know everything that I have been through, the pain, the struggles, the worries, so God, I pray that You will take them away from me even as I leave this place, that I will leave them at Your feet and begin a new. And also, I want to pray for my mother, that she will come to know You and just open her heart, heal her motion sickness so that she would be in comfort and be able to attend Christmas Service on Sunday with me. In Jesus name, I pray. Counting Down.... 4 more Days to End of Exchange.... (2 more days to my flight...)