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I cannot hold onto this anger too tightly, for I will never be able to let it go if I do.

My hands were cold on his back, but he wanted me to stay.

I gave him pieces of me, misshapened and bruised. He held them close, as they crumbled in his grip.

His arms wrapped around me so tight, I always find a way to get closer. I breathe in, and I know, that there will never be a place safer than home.

Here with you, that's where I belong.

1: I felt as if my heart left my body. The pain in his eyes is what got me. I saw how much it hurt him. They told me, “the eyes are windows to the soul”. I truely understand what that means now. 2: I cried in my mother’s arms that day. I did not tell her the reason to why we ended. I still have not told her the reason why we ended. I wish I could. 3: As soon as I walked into my bedroom to lie down, I was faced with photos of you, of us, of what looked like true love. It burned my eyes with memories of the feeling of your arms around me at night. 4. I felt my brain disconnect from my body. 5. I broke for a few months. 6. I tried to get over you by trying to love someone else. 7. I kissed him, but all I wanted to feel was you. I looked for you in his lighter blue eyes, and found nothing. 8. When he left, I told myself I loved him. I was wrong. He left, and I was kind of glad

1. Kissing you never gets old 2. Come on baby, why not? 3. Please baby, just a little longer? 4. Always and forever.

It still hurts in a way that I can’t describe. It’s the kind of hurt that comes and goes. It’s the kind of hurt that completely takes over, even a year later. Those days, those nights… I can still remember. The way the air tasted that day, the feeling of the sun on my face during our little walk near the water. I can still feel the words in my mouth that I never had the chance to say. I can still feel your hands on my sides and your breath on my neck, and the thoughts in my head that were screaming so loud and I tried to silence them by asking you to stop. But you didn’t. Because the one thing I remember the most from those nights, was that you never listened.