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The camera shifts again and for a moment Lando sees more surfboard than ocean. “Hold on for a second. I need to–” Then the entire image jolts violently. For an instant, Lando is convinced Oscar has dropped his phone into the ocean as blue suddenly floods the screen, followed by the greenish-yellow of the surfboard, a flash of sky, and then– Thighs.  Encased in a wetsuit, spread on either side of the board where Oscar is balancing himself, firmly anchored against the movement of the water. Big thighs, too. Strong thighs. The sort that fit the broad shoulders and powerful build Lando already knows about. For one brief, deeply unfortunate moment, his imagination supplies an image entirely unprompted: he imagines those thighs on either side of his own legs, pushing in on him, folding in around him. The thought arrives so suddenly that it almost steals the air from his lungs. The only reason he doesn't immediately turn his facecam off again is because he knows he has to overplay it. Pretend everything is normal. “Wave got you?” he asks eventually, once he trusts his voice to emerge sounding remotely human. Unfortunately, Oscar chooses that exact moment to turn the camera off. Lando follows suit almost immediately, finally allowing himself to bury his face in one of the sofa cushions while he attempts to recover what little remains of his dignity.

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OH, THAT’S SO SWEET!! How cute is that! It’s crazy that you still know how to do that. I feel like I’ve become so digital that I wouldn’t even know how anymore, even though I’m still old enough to have owned so many!!

I think my favourite playlist is the BBN one or the FM!Lance one. But oh my god! I would LOVE to hear your mix!! That would be incredible!!

What’s your favourite scene that you ever wrote? No matter which work. (I’ll also take one of each if you want to indulge my curiosity further)

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HAHA, okay, okay. I will gladly give you an answer, hehe. As long as none of these people score - and I love thinking about this anyway.

There are two answers to this question: my favourite English-language scene I’ve ever written obviously has to come from one of my fanfics, and I think it has to be Chapter 28 of Family Matters, where George talks to Nikola. I thought like Nikola for a very long time, and that whole allegory with roads and words is something I had been pondering for ages. I was super, super happy that I could finally put it into words and turn it into a scene!!

My favourite German-language scene is from an original story - a story about streamers, who have always fascinated me, as you can see, haha. It’s a scene in a cinema where one character basically tries to use the Hays Code to explain why he could never get the girl. To the girl in question. That was so much fun to write. They were both intellectually on the same level, and their conversations and banter were sooo much fun.

My favourite scene from each of my fics:

FM: Nikola and George.

BBN: The pool scene at the end of the hate-fuck montage.

YAMR: The Norway couch scene - or the eulogy.

ZC: The first meetup at the ocean. It’s the first scene I had in mind for the entire fic.

OOYG: The Silverstone night race.

So real! MMMMH, I love jealous Oscar so, so much. We will bask in his insecurities, all while knowing that Lando is just vibing with his bestie, haha.

I may have to admit defeat btw. You’re answering asks at a terrifyingly quick rate and I have no other fic to yell at you about. Maybe it’s time for a family matters reread.

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HAHA, let’s just say I ain’t rooting for Spain because of my deep love for Spain, haha.

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I am CRACKING UP. I am, like, the most rational, scientific person you’ll ever meet - I taunt ghosts in haunted houses because I am just so sure they do not exist. I don’t believe in zodiac signs or tarot or anything beyond that, but ever since I started tying my personal happiness to Oscar, I have become wary, irrational, superstitious, and nervous about jinxing him. It is insane. So I totally feel that, haha.

So far, I find Lando’s POV easier to write. I feel like it’s much easier for me to get into his head because I am quite intimidated by Oscar and much more scared of getting him wrong. Which is strange because I am so much more similar to him, and I also put a lot of myself into the way I write Oscar. But maybe that’s what makes it so much more difficult?

As much as I was happy because Charles didn't get a penalty (love Charles), I have no fucking clue how he didn't. It was so damn unfair for Oscar (also love Oscar). Lando absolutely fought his way back to the front, but got screwed by an atrocious pitstop 💔

Anyway as an update on my recent family matters expedition, I am obsessed. Chrome is winning my screen time stats, and it was up against from my tiktok addiction, which is honestly mind blowing.

I got curious, because although 400000 words sounded like a lot, I had no clue how many words they were. What do you mean this fanfic is more than 3x as long as the thickest book on my shelf? How am I reading through basically 4 medium sized books in the time I usually read one? (I think it was thursday when I started? With work inbetween? HOW??)

I had been wondering the whole fic how you would develop George's and Max's relationship, with their opposing mindsets. But shame on me for doubting you, because you have once again exceeded my expectation. Their relationship is blooming beautifully. And how have you gotten me this invested in Lance and Fernando? I have never cared about either of them much, but their weirdass relationship have the most intruiging crumbs I swallow each chapter.

I have a vague memory of being spoilered on here about Kimi dying, quite a while before I chose to actually read fm. I really really hope that that is just a fake memory my mind conquered, because istg Rose if you do this to me... (ignore this I don't want to get double spoilered either way, I'll just live in agony until I find out 🥲)

Anyway this was my little reading break, back to ao3 I go!

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Sometimes I wish I could love Oscar less and some other drivers more - it would be a lot less stressful for me, haha. Unfortunately, I’m incredibly insular in my obsessions, and when I have Oscar, there are very few other places I can look and feel true happiness. My dad watched the race with me today, and afterwards he asked me, “Why don’t you support a better driver?” I was losing it, hahahaha.

Oh, this is soooo sweet of you!! I’m super, super happy you’re enjoying it that much - and that you can focus on it!! FM is truly so, so long, and I honestly admire anyone who can make it through because, oh my god, that’s such a feat.

And I’m super happy you’re enjoying the relationship between Max and George - it was so, so much fun to develop and write, and it means sooo much to me that you’re into the Strollonso crumbs as well! I always got excited writing them because they were just so incredibly strange, but it was so much fun!!

This is such a sweet ask - oh, this moves me so incredibly much. Thank you so, so much for your words, which are so, so cute and incredibly creative, haha. I don’t think I’ve ever had someone tell me they want to shrink down to the size of an atom before. This is so, so sweet.

I will reply to all of your comments on AO3, I promise!! I want to commemorate them, and you are always so, so kind to me.