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I just want rest and quality time with people I care about on a regular basis

I don’t intend to be difficult I just don’t expect the bare minimum. I’m spoiled

Proud of myself!! Had a long week

I had no idea people have become THIS risk averse.

got home drfunk left my phone at my friends place and got a lyft homee from a b eautiful man

The limitations of human capacity, life and experience are so humbling.

I think at the end of the day I love and trust myself. It’s just that I am bored, have misdirected energy, am not in the season of experimentation what I once cared about so I feel like there’s no closure and or skill development, but im also lonely and want love/comfort. Compulsion prevents exploration; accelerates my survival and functionality. But it hurts bc the soul needs something. Exploration heals the soul. Im blocked. There’s a lesson. It’s uncomfortable. Weird limbo. I don’t think properly.

Flash backs, reflections…… what is difference between criticism, growth, introspection, and action. A marriage between them all. Living outside of oneself. Involved with the world around you. Married into it all.

I’m locked in, she’s in a process of transforming, she’s emotional, heavy baggage, betrayal and let down. Reframing things where I don’t hurt myself. Gotta work ten times harder and my bandwidth is smaller but I’ll snap out of it and get to work. It’s a slower timeline. Exhaustion comes easy. Everything is a lot. I can’t focus. It’s a form of avoidance. I’ll sit with the shameeeee. I don’t want to. Avoiding saying what I really feel bc I did a lot of work to be in this current emotional space (much better than before)

Didn’t realize how sensual and horny comics can be. Batman and Catwoman interactions are so steamy I love the tension lmao

I’m dropping people like flies now. Thank GOD

I be living like I’m trying to prove something. Girl… stand up. Slowly lmao