Yellow

You ever think of every single traumatic thing that's happened to you at once and eighty five billion emotions hit you simultaneously and every single one of them is sad and painful and lonely? No? Just me?

Feeling particularly self harmy today but my last cut literally smells weird from being bandaged for three days so like I can't do that until my arm isn't rotting ya know but also if you gave me a saw I'd take my whole fucking arm off right now. Anyway, I'm not doing great, how is everyone else?

Idk whether I want to self harm or binge eat right now. And it's a fucking struggle. I have no control of myself ever and like wow fuck me I hate this shit

I took my night med finally but I don't want to sleep I just want to cry

I'm so tired of trying to get help, of help not being giving, of fighting to stay alive when I don't even want to be. Fuck off let me be dead or actually fix my brain

Another day Another suicidal thought