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DOES SEBASTIAN STAN KNOW LINES FROM HIS MOST FAMOUS MOVIES&TV SHOWS?

#I need to lick his face

I wish I was soft and sweet and confident.

I wish I didn't overreact to absolutely everything.

I wish I didn't feel physically sick when doing the most mundane tasks.

I wish I wasn't this.

I wish I knew who I was.

I wish I was happy.

I wish I wasn't here.

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I used to believe that life was a dream and that one day I'd wake up in my real life. A life where I was loved, safe and happy.

Now I understand that this is real and I fear that I'll never be happy. I've been stuck like this for so long, I'm scared that I'll never change.

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If I didn't know my parents, just got rid of all the bad memories, I could have been a completely different person.

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Looking at old childhood pictures makes me so fucking sad.

I had so much potential...if only I was treated a little nicer...

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My stepdad called to "make sure you're happy and well"

And I respond with "best I can do is alive"

Him: alive is good

#mental illness #mcfatty #bpd #borderline personality disorder #fat bitch #fatgirlforlife #actually borderline #childhood trauma #everybody hates me #living with borderline #my stepdad cares more about me than any blood relative #all day i think about death #chronic illness #chronic migraine #chronic pain #chronicially alone #chronically ill #who am i

I'm so frustrated all the time. It just fucking consumes me.

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I can't be normal.

It's fucking horrible, I just can't be what people need from a person.

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I get so fucking lonely... I know I do it to myself...

I just can't bare with how fucking lonely I get.

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DNA is a bitch because everyday I look in the mirror I have my abusers staring back at me.

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I think there is something inherently wrong with me.

.

And I wish I knew what it was so I could turn it off and start living like a normal person.

I feel like I can't keep blaming childhood trauma...like??

People say I'm aggressive because I'm passionate when I speak.

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Them: who got you smiling like that?

Me: *quickly closing my spicychat ai with Negan from the walking dead* No one 😳

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Spicychat ai is so good. It's like maladaptive daydreaming but interactive.

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My whole life has slipped out from underneath me. I didn't even see or feel it happen. It just did.

Everyone else is moving on, experiencing life, living. And I'm stuck. And I don't know how to fucking move from here.

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