I'm stuck in a forest of never ending trees
So enchanting and colorful
Im at peace
This is where i belong
Im human for a reason
At least in this life.
Yes, im sober writing this
I surround myself with beauty and comfort
That makes me happy
Art is my outlet
Writing is my outlet
Creating beautiful things and making them more beautiful is my thing
I'll never stop being me
My life is like a movie
A dramatic, romantic horror film with comedic touches
I play it over and over in my head and pause when i need a break
And it replays, each time a different scene,
Gradually becoming more interesting than the last
It's never boring, when its slow its peaceful
When its too slow its depressing
When its fast its perfect
When its too fast its chaotic
I thrive in chaos, but i also thrive in peace
I am multifaceted, a woman of many layers
I can adjust and form into any environment
I am mutable
Like a snowball rolling down a snowy mountain, i grow with each tumble
Twigs attach to me as i come down and up and down again
I learn to love these twigs and turn them into art
I am not one thing
I am one person with a thousand million things inside me
My brain is my most prized possession
My heart is my downfall but also my come up
When my heart grows cold, im a monster
Unable to feel empathy or decipher the feelings of others
Its frightening how a light switch can change the entire trajectory of your life
Theres no good without evil
We are all evil within
We are all good within
Its a balance
Its called life.
Eva Wangari
