i took a calculated risk but boy am i bad at math.

Its wild i was living in a closet when i first made this account and now I'm being drove home from NYC where i just blew close to 10 grand to go home to a 2 story house w/ a garage that i live in for free and am taken care of.

i love reopening this app to see people tagging my personal vents as OC musings its actually kind of hilarious in a distressing way

ostrasize me harder while im upset!!! thatll fucking help!!! fuvk you i cant eait until i die so you feel like shit

no matter what i say not thing will portray i feel worse than he does

my emotions are inhuman and unequal and hard to understand!!!!!! theyre not real!!!!! im not real!!!!

i wish i was treated like a person

i wish someone would rape me to death so someone would care about me

it would be funny to kill myself and then him realize he was just letting me do it and not taking me seriously.

i wish i could cut mydelf apart more but i care so much about remaining pretty so bruises and almost knocking myself out will do 💝 no one takes ot seriously anyways

my skull and thighs are going to be very bruised ahhahahaha swag

slitting my throat. hm.

i am a akip away from drinking poisonous shit so somebody will care about me 💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝 i want to be dead so badly

i love just sobbing my eyes out and having no one help me like how i help them when theyre sobbing irrationally 😍💝😍💝

things i will remember for the rest of my relationship: this!