Sometimes, staring at walls for hours, listening to your playlist on repeat can be healing. They soothe you. Because even in the daily hustle bustle of your daily life, you tune out. You form your own little corner in this gigantic world, to realize plain truths of life. It just proves that all our hearts are cracked from within, with frayed hems because the only way we can rise up is by falling once.

Did it feel good when you abandoned me? When you fulfilled the plans I made last year for us but without me? Did you enjoy the thought of leaving me behind and leaving me with scars and trauma and bad memories? I hope you did. I hope it felt worth it for you. Right now? I’m still paying the price for your actions.

I think….you still have no idea. The effect you can have.

I miss how we kissed like there’s no tomorrow, I miss your warm hands on my skin, I miss those days when you brought me flowers, but most of all I miss the friendship and the home we built out of each other’s arms.

Sometimes things aren’t what they appear. We all have hurts that we don’t show.