Loving You In Silence

Crystal Nicole was one of the co-writers.

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Is this one of Camila’s pearl ring too?

I’ve seen this video a couple of hundred times by now. I should know it like the back of my hand.

This was the first video that made me believe Camila actually had potential as a solo artist.

*walks on stage as if she knows she’s about to kill us*

But, really, Baby C was actually nervous to walk on the stage

Those clothes are amazing! Those bangs too! I think I’m in love again! (lern, don’t kill me)

Crotch grab for the win

When Camila actually pretend to be Michael Jordan

“C: Boys, aint that girl pretty?

Boys: *agreed!*”

The shoulder moves, omg, the swagger!

She’s got more shoulder game than Toshi and Justin and that’s big because, you know, they’re pros and she isn’t

Toshi forgot his homework at home

Omg, her naughty smile when she moves her hips

Stupid bangs

Tudo joia, galera?

Is that a panther on her back?

I’m awfully distracted by that big drum kit, but the drummer ain’t hitting none of that, just drum pads.

Her smile when she realized the crowd loved it!

I love messy hair Camila

Conclusion

Well, we all know why the yoga mat was that familiar.

Also Lauren

It’s Camren yo!

They’re still dropping indirects like it’s their job!

Camila drops the My Oh My Official Dance Video 2 days ago and then we get Lauren saying “comes alive at midnight” the day after. Like hello!!! They are waving the “let’s be obvious” flag again.

Here comes the tea. Do you remember the Mexico stunt Shawmila pulled on December 2019? The one soon after the fake tumblr leak, when Camila was avoiding the media for obvious reasons, yet she still got papped with Shawn in Mexico?

According to information provided by @skylojoregui, Camila didn’t spend the holidays with his family. They compiled an archive with pics and a video from his family during the holidays. Camila wasn’t around in any of them.

I’m not gonna share the pictures or the names of people involved. Although their profiles are public, they’re not celebrities or anything of the kind. I don’t want you guys to go hate on them because they have nothing to do with this PR. 

I will, however, share the video, which has been posted in a Shawn’s update account.

https://www.instagram.com/p/B6hMKNiARGt/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link

Meaning that, while it’s possible that Camila was in Mexico at the time, she wasn’t with him. It’s very likely that she was with her own family, but their PR teams just had to make it seem like they were together.

I hate myself for having lost this attunement. It was very important to her and seeing her expression on the verge of tears has left me emotional. And more when I have seen all the shit she has been through since the group separated and had that circus that hurt her so much (For my part I can only speak from 2018 onwards) But it doesn’t take a genius to know how hurt Lauren got out of all that chaos and how much healing she still needs. We have seen that before. She also shouted it to the four winds as Camila is doing now. She showed it in each one of those stories where she seemed like haunted.Remember, folks? Those stories that scared us because Lauren seemed like a soulless girl. That is what she is healing as well and that we realize that she is different. Freer, less haunted but with a long road ahead. I had no plans to make a longer post of her attunement, I think I shouldn’t even write it because I promised not to, but I need to express myself. I have not seen her streaming yet, but tomorrow I will and I will write a post about it because I am very interested to know what she discussed with her holistic psychologist friend.

So … I really should be watching Lauren’s attunement, but instead I’m stuck here thinking Camila’s post about the Glennon Doyle book, again.

What has caught my attention the most and that I did not write in the last post, is that Glennon Doyle left a message to Camila about her post, calling her sister and a cheetah. Remember that is Glennon’s own reference to herself before leaving her heterosexual marriage and marrying who she is today, her wife

(The post of Glennon’s wife is making a reference about their love and the book)

And this is what really bothers me about it. That she can’t go out, can’t be free like Glennon. Her comment made me think that the author considers Camila as part of her LGBT community and we all know that Camila never stopped belonging to the community. Since I am in this fandom and I met the girls, I realized that Camila in her fucking life hid her essence even though the bastards have tried to mold her as a straight pop princess so as not to affect her image or the sales of her music . And it sucks me like never before that she’s still in a box, in a cage. Being something that does not represent her because she has to play at being the girlfriend of a declining pop star and make us believe that she is happy when the truth is that she is not. And Camila is shouting it to the four winds, folks. Everything in her screams “Please let me out.” “This is not the real me.” And it’s true, maybe we will never get to know the real Camila Cabello ever, but we did meet the girl who hated to assume that the person who was driving her crazy was a boy.

She deserves freedom, to be who she really is. Letting out its essence. Lauren was able to do it and is now recovering from all the shit the PRs put her through. Camila has been locked in the same shit for years. Let her out at once. Let her be free. Let her stop lying to the world about something we know is hurting her and that only those who believe in the narratives of the bastards cannot see that suffering. The time is not to continue riding circuses, folks. We’re in the middle of a fucking pandemic, she deserves to be with who she wants to be with and not forced to be with someone tied to a fucking contract.

So … I really should be watching Lauren’s attunement, but instead I’m stuck here thinking Camila’s post about the Glennon Doyle book, again.

What has caught my attention the most and that I did not write in the last post, is that Glennon Doyle left a message to Camila about her post, calling her sister and a cheetah. Remember that is Glennon’s own reference to herself before leaving her heterosexual marriage and marrying who she is today, her wife

(The post of Glennon’s wife is making a reference about their love and the book)

And this is what really bothers me about it. That she can’t go out, can’t be free like Glennon. Her comment made me think that the author considers Camila as part of her LGBT community and we all know that Camila never stopped belonging to the community. Since I am in this fandom and I met the girls, I realized that Camila in her fucking life hid her essence even though the bastards have tried to mold her as a straight pop princess so as not to affect her image or the sales of her music . And it sucks me like never before that she’s still in a box, in a cage. Being something that does not represent her because she has to play at being the girlfriend of a declining pop star and make us believe that she is happy when the truth is that she is not. And Camila is shouting it to the four winds, folks. Everything in her screams “Please let me out.” “This is not the real me.” And it’s true, maybe we will never get to know the real Camila Cabello ever, but we did meet the girl who hated to assume that the person who was driving her crazy was a boy.

She deserves freedom, to be who she really is. Letting out its essence. Lauren was able to do it and is now recovering from all the shit the PRs put her through. Camila has been locked in the same shit for years. Let her out at once. Let her be free. Let her stop lying to the world about something we know is hurting her and that only those who believe in the narratives of the bastards cannot see that suffering. The time is not to continue riding circuses, folks. We’re in the middle of a fucking pandemic, she deserves to be with who she wants to be with and not forced to be with someone tied to a fucking contract.

HOW TO READ BODY LANGUAGE: 5 Signs Shawn Mendes & Camila Cabello’s PDA R… 

This video says what we already know about Shawmila but explained by Shallon Lester, a woman who knows about body language. And if a body language expert talks about this circus and saying that’s fake she knows what she’s talking about, knows who the industry works and better than that, knows how the paparazzi works. You have to watch it, folks. 

Dinah Jane AKA Captain i ❤ You 

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Caminah my love