I want to get skinny to justify my behaviour the last year because then people will be like oh she has an eating disorder that’s why she’s been so weird

You curse yourself the second you make your first bad decision. Today I shouldn’t have eaten cereal after lunch. And ordering takeout messed me up too. Fucking hate when they do that.

I overate today and yesterday, not above 2000. I feel like I should fast until dinner tomorrow.

I get embarrassed thinking about how little self control I used to have, I couldn’t resist making my mom go through McDonald’s after school multiple times a week like that’s literally so sad. I ate fast food ALL THE TIME LIKE I can’t even bring myself to eat it at all anymore because it’s so bad for you. And I used to try restricting everyday and would fail and binge by noon, and spend the rest of the day eating and feeling bad for myself like… it was always in my control I didn’t have to eat jus because I was hungry.. it’s ok to be hungry. That’s how skinny girls are made!❤️

Imagine someone commenting on how much weight you’ve lost and how different you look

Imagine walking into school after you reach your gw and finally being able to wear cute outfits that show off your body and feel pretty

I genuinely am so fat and hideous, I can’t stand to look at myself. I barely look human.

I ruin every picture because I’m so big

I’m back at my highest weight, 30 pounds lost for nothing. I’ll get back to 115 in half the time it took before.