floattherascals

Like I want to be sick

What am I doing

I’m terrified

Enigmatic in my past

Still I think of you daily

And more now

What is our destiny?

Past love in enlightened memories?

Do I see you again?

You’re no different now

You scare me cos I hurt you thick tar poisoning the lungs of our connection

Damage so deeply cast I broke a crack in you

Melted some gold and tried to stick ourselves together and

I think it worked

More beautiful we stand alone until we choke on the tar again

One lost connection

Lights sparks with another

I’m so sensitive you’re not

We are wrong for me

I’m

Pulse

Live

I am my pulse, this driving pounding furnace of energy, desire and consciousness

‘How do you live on the edge of life like that’

You can’t feel this fire like some people do

They’ve given it a name

adhd

Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder

I feel SAPCV

Spontaneous animated passionate creative and vivacious

Sometimes dark and strange - introverted

Sometimes completely lost and explosive

But fuck your medication cos what’s in a name

I manage how I manage but sometimes I’m late or scatty or forgetful or unreliable and that’s how I am

I see you love my better half