It was the first time sheâd woken up in Ethanâs bed like this, the first time that she hadnât left the Kaminski household shortly after putting her clothes back on. She did feel guilty about their arrangement, it was something that played on her mind whenever she thought about her own morals because it hardly seemed ethical that she was sleeping with the man whoâd so recently lost his wife. He was lonely, Lottie could tell that much, and he was so used to pushing people away in every other aspect that this sexual connection and closeness was all he allowed himself. Theyâd gotten closer lately, spending more time talking than they did tearing each other clothes off, and she was beginning to wonder whether this could be anything more than a casual fling. A part of her, one that was growing, was beginning to hope that it could be, especially as she woke up next to him.Â
Her eyes fluttered open, squinting at the morning light that was beginning to enter the room. She could feel a warm palm against her bare hip, his other hand resting against hers where it lay on his chest. Lottie let out a soft breath as she lifted her head, resting it against his shoulder and letting her hazel eyes meet his own. ââMorning.ââ She murmured, clearing her throat and trying to read his expression, to see whether he regretted that she had slept over like she had. There was no rule book for this kind of thing, they had never set any real boundaries other than the fact that they didnât want his son to discover what they were doing.Â
ââThatâs okay. You were worn out, thatâs what happens when you mess around with a younger woman.ââ Lottie spoke lightly, a tease in her voice and a lightness to it all, in the hopes that it would stop things feeling awkward. Unable to help herself, she found herself leaning forward instinctively, stealing a kiss from him and humming gently, until she realised that they likely werenât the only two people awake in the house. It made her pull back, feeling a little panicked. ââShit, will Matti be awake right now?ââ
There hadnât been a warm body lying beside him in years, even before Rosalieâs untimely death. Their marriage had become, understandably, more rocky towards the end of her life, even after the two had decided to reconcile and start anew. Ethan slept in the den most nights, listening to the sounds of LA traffic moving slowly over the bridge near their house. The affairs with other women had ceased for the last few months, and as they began to get along once again, the doctor had convinced himself that theyâd be able to share that space once again â but they never did. Despite the fact that the blonde lying into his side wasnât the woman heâd fell in love with fifteen years ago, there was a strange sense of comfort that overtook him.
âYou act like Iâm a sixty-somethinâ year old man. Age ainât got a thing to do with it,â he countered, rolling his eyes playfully. His eyes fluttered closed for a moment as she leaned in to kiss him, his hand pressing more firmly into the side of her hip as their lips melted together, surrendering himself completely â until, that is, she pulled back. As if on queue, he heard a knock on his bedroom door, followed by the voice of his twelve-year-old son asking what was for breakfast. âShit, shit, shit,â the doctor practically leapt out of bed, grabbing the closest pair of sweatpants he could find strewn around the room before tossing Lottie an apologetic look. âOne second, bud! Iâll whip you up some, uh, Fruit Loops,â Ethan called out when the boy continued knocking, stumbling over slightly as he pulled his pants over his waist. âI â give me a minute,â he mumbled to Lottie, slipping out his bedroom door as he went to get the boy ready for school.
Half an hour later, Matti had gotten on the bus, leaving the house quieter than before. A large exhale escaping his lips, Ethan finally returned to Lottie, raking his fingers through his mussed up hair. âSorry about that. Guess I forgot to set my alarm for this morning. Shit,â he ran a hand over his chin, moving to sit on the bed beside her. âUsually it takes a lot more yelling and arguing to get him up when heâs supposed to be.â