BLOOD / LET.

‘  it is only once in awhile that you see someone whose electricity and presence matches your at that moment.  ’ ‘  we could have been happy. i know that, and it is perhaps the hardest thing to know.  ’ ‘  i mean, i hope you’re happy, but the sky is still the sky without you and i’m not surprised by that anymore.  ’ ‘  that didn’t happen, of course. things never happened the way i imagined them.  ’ ‘  we need never be hopeless because we can never be irreparably broken.  ’ ‘  i still catch myself feeling sad about things that don’t matter anymore.  ’ ‘  i used to think i was tough, but then i realized i wasn’t. i was fragile and i wore thick fucking armor. and i hurt people so they couldn’t hurt me. and i thought that was what being tough was, but it isn’t.  ’ ‘  perhaps one did not want to be loved as much as to be understood.  ’ ‘  i tried so hard to be everything you wanted, i forgot who i was.  ’ ‘  is anyone anywhere happy?  ’ ‘  we didn’t talk about anything heavy or light.  ’ ‘  we were just there together and that was enough.  ’ ‘  i looked and looked at you and i knew, as clearly as i know that i will die, that i loved you more than anything i had ever seen or imagined on earth.  ’ ‘  you think ‘okay, i get it, i’m prepared for the worst,’ but you hold out that small hope, see, and that’s what fucks you up. that’s what kills you.  ’ ‘  i belong to moments. not to people.  ’ ‘  loving you was the easiest thing i ever did, even when it was hard, it was easy. loving you was like breathing.  ’ ‘  the you who you are tonight is the same you i was in love with yesterday. the same you i’ll be in love with tomorrow.  ’ ‘  i’ve seen a lot of beautiful things with a heavy heart.  ’ ‘  but the heart has its own memory and i have forgotten nothing.  ’ ‘  after awhile you could get used to anything.  ’ ‘  i crave a dangerous kind of love – one that breaks hearts and bed springs.  ’ ‘  just because you love someone, that doesn’t mean your lives will fit together.  ’ ‘  there is so much stubborn hope in the human heart.  ’ ‘  be patient with me. my heart is heavy.  ’ ‘  my heart talks about nothing but you.  ’ ‘  i want you by my side so that i never feel alone again.  ’ ‘  i think too much. i don’t feel enough.  ’ ‘  i might confess that it’s you i love.  ’ ‘  maybe some things aren’t supposed to last. maybe they mean more that way.  ’ ‘  i was supposed to be having the time of my life.  ’ ‘  i hope i’ll always believe in love even if love shames me and tries to destroy me. i’ll hope i’ll want to start again.  ’ ‘  what does it mean to mourn what never happened?  ’ ‘  i’m awfully difficult but i do know when i love someone and i’ve loved you ever since i can remember.  ’ ‘  the sad truth is that the truth is sad and that what you want does not matter.  ’ ‘  you can’t leave yet. i’m not finished falling in love with you.  ’ ‘  i’m not sorry for who i had to become in order to survive.  ’ ‘  i didn’t necessarily feel like dying, but i’d been feeling a lot like not being alive.  ’ ‘  with me, you’re number one and there isn’t even a number two.  ’ ‘  you shouldn’t miss people who don’t miss you, right?  ’ ‘  i tried so hard to be everything you wanted, i forgot who i was.  ’ ‘  do you know how hard it is to say nothing? when every atom of you strains to do the opposite?  ’ ‘  our only kiss was like an accident – a beautiful gasoline rainbow.  ’ ‘  that’s what’s so damn difficult about making the decision to leave. whether it’s the right or wrong call, it hurts just the same.  ’ ‘  everybody should have to love, and it should last as long as your life does.  ’ ‘  loving you was the easiest thing i ever did. even when it was hard, it was easy. loving you was like breathing.  ’ ‘  i love you. i don’t always understand you, but i love you.  ’ ‘  how do you go back to being strangers with someone who has seen your soul?  ’ ‘  break my heart. break it a thousand times if you like. it was only ever yours to break anyway.  ’ ‘  just so you know, i fucking loved you. i fucking loved the daylights out of you.  ’ ‘  i hope you find someone you can’t live without. i really do. and i hope you never have to know what it’s like to try and live without them.  ’ ‘  i think we almost loved each other, but the only thing i was sure about is that almost wasn’t good enough.  ’ ‘  of course i miss you. one minute you were here and now you’re gone. even if i didn’t love you, i’d miss you. and i loved the fuck out of you.  ’ ‘  people don’t always get what they deserve in this world.  ’ ‘  what if you find your soulmate at the wrong time?  ’ ‘  you drink a little too much and try a little too hard and you go home to a cold bed and think, ‘that was fine.’ and your life is a long line of fine.  ’ ‘  i was so fucking soft for you and you ruined me.  ’ ‘  time will pass; these moods will pass; and i will, eventually, be myself again.  ’ ‘  and i’m over it, i’m over it, i promise i’m over it. but it still hurts sometimes.  ’ ‘  ‘almost’ is the worst way to love someone.  ’ ‘  i don’t know what i think. all i know is that most of the time i would rather be with you than anyone else i know.  ’ ‘  you are pretty much the only thing that makes me get up in the morning.  ’ ‘  what did my fingers do before i held you? what did my heart do with its love?  ’ ‘  it has been a beautiful fight. still is.  ’ ‘  stop insisting on clearing your head – clear your fucking heart instead.  ’ ‘  too often, the only escape is sleep.  ’ ‘  it’s necessary for me sometimes just to be alone and quiet and doing nothing.  ’ ‘  you have a place in my heart no one else ever could have.  ’ ‘  i do love you – i can’t change that.  ’ ‘  come and kiss me and let’s forget.  ’ ‘  i don’t ask you to love me always like this, but i ask you to remember.  ’ ‘  somewhere inside of me there will always be the person i am tonight.  ’ ‘  i used to build dreams about you.  ’ ‘  i love you so much, much, much that it just hurts every minute i’m with you.  ’ ‘  sometimes people just want to be happy, even if it’s not real.  ’ ‘  every nerve in my body could be damaged or numb and i’d still be able to feel you.  ’ ‘  i may be in pain, but i am not weak.  ’ ‘  you look like a dream i’ve never had before.  ’ ‘  you can live a good life without ever knowing real love.  ’ ‘  you are as real as anyone, and your doubts make you more real, not less.  ’ ‘  the one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person.  ’ ‘  the only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open.  ’ ‘  it’s so hard to forget pain, but it’s even harder to remember sweetness. we have no scar to show for happiness.  ’ ‘  just for the record, the weather today is calm and sunny, but the air is full of bullshit.  ’ ‘  just for the record, the weather today is partly suspicious with chances of betrayal.  ’ ‘  just for the record, the weather today is bitter with occasional bits of jealous rage.  ’ ‘  the weather today is partly angry, leading to resignation and ultimatums.  ’ ‘  for the record, knowing when people are only pretending to like you isn’t such a great skill to have.  ’

Anita Ofokansi, Literary Sexts

ima let this filter be my reminder to set up an eye exam bc damn do i look cute in glasses 

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