eternalworm

“Today I missed you and it didn’t hurt to miss you like the earth longs for the rain when summer begins to fade, and it needs the drops to soothe the feeling of transition. Today I missed you and I was happy for the space you left how it was empty, null but not at all broken when autumn suddenly comes to take the leaves to the ground so that the trees can remember their roots. Today I missed you and I was there at the supermarket sniffing the flowers that reminded me of how beautiful a struggle winter is because what comes after that was the day I first kissed your smile that’s as annihilating as your giggle. Today I missed you and that’s all these words can express because you were searching for something while I was searching for something else and we both had to let go for our truths and honestly, I hope you find what makes you spring.”

Maybe it’s the way your eyes gleam when you talk about the stars and the constellations. Or how you smile, With a hint of excitement, When you tell me how you find solace in watching the sunrise. Maybe it’s the way you love the oceans, As if there are waves breaking on to the walls of your heart. Or the way you keep your arms when you walk. Maybe it’s the way you tell me you love me. And how you don’t mean it, At all.