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Why the fuck does it take heartache, discomfort, taboo-thoughts, straight up restlessness and wicked arousal to take pen to paper?

Why can’t I write when I’m “well”?

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It’s been a while since I’ve written.

I used to be a poet.

Now

I’m here.

Realized I still squirm away from shadow work

Because now there’s more to find.

And it blows me away. I thought I was doing well.

But it’s always the most tender parts of ourselves

That keep pulsing, slithering in aching anticipation

To remind us

That there’s more work to do.

#poetry #poem #creative writing #free verse #first draft

Here’s the thoughts again, muérete. Like wtf? I’m happy… right? Why you tryna kill ME, brain???

So I never posted about my first Danza ceremony. Tlazcamati noyolikniwan! I am so grateful we got to dance together and persevere despite the heat.

Wish I had the words to describe the prayer that emanated from each person’s bones.

Upon reflection, I realize that the words don’t come because there is grief blocking my voice. Grief due to the watering down of our indigenous identity.

It’s hard to address because many in the Danza community are holding tight to beliefs, ideas, and words that are simply fabrications, mystic myths that romanticize our past without acknowledging indigenous present. Witnessing the “declaration of kwawtemok” just proved that once again.

Anyway, movement is beautiful.

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1.31.23

Sometimes curiosity makes me wonder, “what if I kill myself?”

But I know I can’t say that out loud to anyone. I don’t wish to worry anyone.

But the thought does come up.

What if I died?

How long would it take for the people in my life to forget? To be okay?

Or would it be a relief?

Thank fuck she’s gone

Obviously never would anyone admit, but maybe, just maybe, I take up too much space and I’d serve the world better as fertilizer.

In the middle of a career and life transition, 11.13.22

Maestra no more, but still there for the kids when they need me.

Educator forever, but. The focus is on my learning right now.

Spirituality is blooming, still uncomfortable.

Sometimes I wonder, is it capitalism, or ADHD?

Tea blends

2022

Don’t give up on things that look dead

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