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Im not that gentle of a person. I cannot keep all of my anger inside, and for once I lost my chance because of that. I was jealous

Saint saens' the swan. I have 2 interpretation, a feeling of calmness and the other, the demise of someone's feelings and now leading to a death of ones love. A beautiful death.

No matter how much I hate going to the UE main campus, I cannot deny some of the best moments with you happened there. At this time 4pm we are still at physics class sitting together and about 30-40 mins the class will end. I remember a funny moment when your mom said that she was still far away and busy so she asked us to go home by ourselves heheh. I don’t remember if it was you who suggested it or me but we took a jeep home, just the two of us. The jeep was empty just a couple of people were there, I remember smiling at you because the wind was blowing back your hair exposing your cute puffy cheeks haha I just can’t help but smile haha. The most funny part was when the jeep suddenly breaks and we flew forward! And I fell towards you, we were still in shock, but after that we just looked at each other and started to laugh hahah. Remember when we practiced our lines inside the jeep? Hahah classic! Hehe

Im studying right now but Im distracted by a show of some sort just across the street on the ccp campus. But it’s not the noise that distracts me it’s a memory, the music, the noisy host and a show kind of feeling reminds me of the UE days with you. I remember there was this bazaar or something like that, we roamed around the campus and look for things while waiting for your mom to come and pick us up, it was noisy, a lot of people were there. we saw the ring that you always wanted the mood ring, but we didn’t buy it because the lady said it was fake. Hahah on one occasion that also happened on the UE campus, we were at the center of the quadrangle because you wanted a picture at the christmas tree haha I laughed at you because the wind was ruining your hair and you didn’t like the angle of the pic (as always) haha I’ve always thought of the pics that I took were perfect, though. beautiful, simple, quirky moments heheh…..The memory just stopped by.

I remember the time when I was in the community and you were at school. Our business was done and I was on my way back to school where you were waiting patiently. The walk to the station from the community was really long and I hated it I didn't bother to ride a tricycle because I only had money for the train. Haha. While walking I got a text from you asking me where I was. Im sorry I lied, I said I was pretty close when In reality, I was still walking briskly towards the station haha. When I got to the school finally, you were seated-quite elegantly I must add- looking towards me with an unsatisfied look on your face, like a cat waiting for food. a beautiful sight it was to see someone waiting for me. And it was as satisfying as drinking cold water after a hot day in the community, for me to say to you, "let's go home".

There I just said it, I'm scared you'll forget about me.

To see the happy state that you are in, it is enough for me to be happy about. I always convince myself everyday.

I never realized sooner that you were unhappy. I was too late.

So happy!! Hahahah we talked for a bit. Yasss

I miss going home with you. It's the only moment apart from school we get to really talk face to face. it makes my mind at ease because It doesnt make me worry, because I know that you are safe already. I miss all of those talks,our disagreements and just laugh about it, those weird topics and mostly I miss the way you just dont give 2 fcks about what I say hehe. I hope you are happy.