BDO Memoirs

Life before I left Calpheon.

Modern Delphynnia? ))

It was happening again.  I was dreaming being beckoned to follow.  A moonless night but the fireflies were about, but was it not still too cold for them?  Wisps...fairies...their glow brighter as they whisked about dancing with each other.  Luring me, tempting me to follow.  I needed to go, I needed to help and so I ran trying to get closer...deeper into the woods. Then I heard his voice... “Don’t go!  It is a trap, stay with me, I will keep you safe.” I stopped.  Hesitated hearing the words that drove me forward and then his words, his voice warning me of danger.  “I need to know...please come with me...”  I heard myself whispering desperately.  “I cannot stop, but I would like you to be there...with me.” But before I could hear his answer, I was being jostled awake by Chiara who had broke something again.  I remember sitting up wondering why Chiara was here so early or did I oversleep?  Whatever the case may be, Layvan was already in my dreams and I just meat him a couple of days ago.

I have prided myself in getting to know the people that wanted to get to know me more.  There were times that I would hold myself apart only because I am always so busy, but I try my best to listen to the people that I care about at least to know that they are all right and to give them advice if I can. Why did I write this?  I went on my very first date...of a courtship?  I can say I have been on dates before, but maybe those weren’t dates?  Layvan took me towards the outskirts of Heidel just where it went quiet and there wasn’t too much noise from the city.  A picnic dinner that was done up wonderfully.  We ate and talked sharing everything about each other.  I feel like I can tell him everything and he would understand.  He scared me though.  We were talking about magic users and then I asked him what he did and well there was a misunderstanding that was quickly cleared up.  He said he would never hurt me and would protect me even though he knows what I can do...well the healing magic, but I told him there was more. He looks at me as if he is intending on falling deep into my soul.  His gaze makes me forget myself and everything that I have bound up deep down within.  I can feel the blush warming my cheeks, but he doesn’t chuckle or make mention of it as if it was cute.  He murmured, True beauty and I have no idea what to say or how to talk after such a compliment.  Most tend to ring false as if they want something, but he says it like he is gazing upon a piece of art that stirred his emotions and touched his spirit. It was getting dark and he escorted me home, but I did not want to go just yet so I asked him to come into the clinic.  I needed to also give him his shirt.  He was speechless for a moment and that smile.  My heart fluttered as he did.  When I see him, or hear him I feel lighter.  He called me strong and wanted to see me fight.  He even said that it was graceful when I did it and I wanted to show him more.  To show off because it is him.  He said he liked my strength and I blurted out that I liked him.  His exact words were ‘I like you for you’, I cannot wait to see him again.  Even as he left for the night and I went upstairs to sleep, my thoughts were on him just re-living the conversation that we had, the time we shared and I will only share this with you...with me...I want more.

After being in a bit of a panic, I made my way to Velia and luckily Darcy was home.  Well she was on the roof, a sort of perch for her to people watch without interruption.  It made sense and you know how often people do not look up? We sat down and talked, catching up on all the things that have happened since we parted ways.  Hearing of the news of getting closer to Xuong made me smile and warm knowing him to be a good man especially when he knew what Darcy was.  I can sense another side of her, softer and more free.  It made her even more beautiful that she was opening up and discovering the world. It was wonderful just talking and spending time and we talked of the people in our lives and cooking.  She wondered how we would dress salad, and I think she was imagining a bowl of salad dressed up in one of her gowns, but thankfully, it was easily explained even though the image conjured made me chuckle.  She gave me a few gifts and I completely forgot to give her the one that I had found when I was out, but I might just send it to her through a messenger.  Everyone loves to get things through the post. Coloring sticks, and a beautiful journal with mushrooms on it, it reminded me of one of our first meetings and well she remembered.  That is the most amazing news above all.  We did talk about what I was going to wear her for some party and me for my date with Layvan.  I picked my sweater dress with the long stockings and boots.  I think it will cover any sort of situation and he did not say I needed to wear pants.  Oh my goodness, Darcy said that Xuong did not request that she wear pants and it got a bit embarrassing.  What a funny story and perhaps I will have a story or two to share. We had to eventually part ways, but I miss her and told her we need to spend more time together with the both of us had time.  We will make time.  It will happen!

Something even she doesn’t know.))