i am 100000% certain that i am bisexual like i do really find guys attractive aswell as girls but the thought of having any kind of intimate relationship with a guy terrifies me. after all the shit experiences i've had with men and boys i just really cannot trust them at all. if i ever meet a guy and he has a crush on me then god fucking help him becos it's gonna take an actual miracle for me to feel comfortable around him and get me to trust him and not be paranoid that he's going to manipulate me/sexually assault me or just fuck with me in anyway. i'm not saying girls can't be shitty untrustworthy people too but becos of rape culture, the amount of men that treat women like dogshit and the experiences i've had with men myself, i just cannot trust them and i don't think i will be able to for a very long time tbh (or maybe even ever lmao.)