Journey To Fit

I started my old soccer summer workout last week and I did day 1 and day 2 then day 3 I did my run and had just started my lift, which was quite painful bc something is wrong with my knee, when a call came in (free gym at the fd...) and by the time I came back it was now 930pm and I was exhausted so just went home. I planned on doing the lift yesterday, got ready for the gym and everything, and never actually went. Now today I have a photoshoot for the fd in the am, then a public appearance thing for the fd at a block party, and a soccer game at 4 so I don't think it'll happen today either. :/ #fail

I finally started working out again and this time so did my hunny 😊 we are, not doubt, seriously out of shape. I hope we can keep it up

I wonder what it's like to have a lunch break? I see all these people who post pics of their workout during lunch ("got in tris, bis, chest and some cardio on my lunch break") like what?? How long is your break? If I get to eat some crackers out of the nutrition room in my 12hr shift its been a good day. Most days I don't get a break, on the off chance we're adequately staffed and I can take a 15 min break, I can't leave the hospital and it's just that, 15 min. That's barely eating a sandwich. I guess I'm in the wrong profession...

I've ran or walked almost every day for the past 2 weeks. I missed 2 or 3 days when I was working and was exhausted afterwards or had something else I had to do (I work 7a-7/8p so not much wiggle room). I know I could get up before work but it just doesn't work out, I can't get up in the morning. But going after work has been fine unless somethings comes up, like last night there was a fundraiser for my uncle (he was hit by a drunk driver when he was on his motorcycle in March and lost his leg, shattered his pelvis, broke ribs, and had over 70units of blood transfused; the Drs are calling him a medical miracle bc he shouldn't have survived) and bc I worked I wasn't planning on going bc I figured it would be over by the time I got out but I ended up going and catching the end of it and didn't get home until after 10. But I got up this morning and did yesterday's workout and today's. I've been using the beginner 5k plan on the Nike run app and then at the beginning of this week they updated the app and I lost my progress bc they changed the plans!! I was only a week and a few days in but still! So I put together a new plan (which is SO different than the options they had on the original app) and I'm almost done with week 1 of that. I feel a little better while running but am still slow and have to stop after like a mile and walk for a bit. I weighed myself the other day and I'm down almost 3lbs! My diet has NOT been on point whatsoever but I've been trying to stay away from the fast food and soda and not being able to have a break at work and walking 4+ miles while I'm there (the ER really isn't THAT big so you can imagine how much walking that is) is most likely the reason for the loss. Whatever, I'll take it! Lol We go to closing on the house on the 14th! I'm so nervous! We're not moving into the house until the beginning of 2017 just bc of job situations and stuff. He doesn't have a job there yet and I want a little more ER experience before moving on since I just started at this job in June. I keep going back and forth wondering if this was a good idea. But in the words of my sister, "it's just something you have to close your eyes and jump or else you'll never do it". She's right. I still live with my parents and I want to be on my own badly, my boyfriend is 4 years younger than me so this is a real push for him but I'm sure he'll step up when it's his own place and we're not living under my parents roof (I hope)

I'm literally at the point where I just want to give up. 0 motivation and 0 drive. It's just easier to do whatever, of course until I find myself with extended family or anywhere in public I feel so self conscious and hate the way I look. Ugh. So frustrating

I set a private goal this week of not having any soda since I've been drinking A LOT of soda the past couple months. I almost caved yesterday. I was so thirsty at work, hadn't had a break yet, and was starving by hour 11, I was craving a nice bubbly rootbeer or something. But I resisted and got a coconut water instead. I then had Taco Bell after work but that's next weeks goal lol. Baby steps. Off to Crossfit!