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i may SOMETIMES be rude, depressed and easy to piss off//

because every single time i'm just reminded that... wait, you actually buy them?? what the hell ..do you mean you just buy a film that came out 20+ years ago? you buy a pdf of a book that can be found for free in like 40 seconds? what?

Filch was begging about it and Snape just did.

ty <3

yep, feel free to.

1. you can repost it anywhere with credit.

besides drawind SB SS HP LL and this lot damn, what else am i doing HP-related? or what's in my plans and i know how to do it, but i'm, like, too lazy.

in order from what i've started doing > what i'm just planning.

~ a small fun tier list maker.

it needs a little more tweaking to get it working properly, but, like, it's in the style of the Marauder's Map, and it'll just be tied to a site blog. so it'll be like a website. just under a tumblr domain.

you'll be able to add, well, just some softing subjects to it >> you can already add some words to it + pictures and gifs. but the main gimmick of this thing is that there are loads of easter eggs. like, you can write "i solemnly swear that i am up to no good" and then new tiers adding unlocks. you can call Sirius a good boy, and more customisation unlocks.

if you bark back at him,

> customisation unlocks as well.

and if you write "severus" or "snape" in any caps, it starts insulting you.

///sorry, Severus. my shayla. ^(

well, at the moment it just needs a tiny bit more polishing so it looks a bit more aesthetically pleasing. that's it.

> then i'm trying to write an analysis of the entire sequence of the ending of PoA from Sev's point of view. first and foremost because it's, like, the seed of the whole AU that maybe someday, but most likely not, will turn into a fanfic. but, like, it exists in my head, so i'm, like, really interested in it. there you go. but i got stuck on this thing at a different point.

because i really, really needed to know WHO was WHETE at WHAT MOMENT. and so i decided to solve this problem by/// making another html thingy that has a map with points.

the points can be dragged around to change the distance between them. the distance is set as the distance between the Front Doors and Hagrid's.

into this map, hopefully, one will be able to add other characters, and set parameters for exactly what time they were where,

and then start a timer for those 3 hours 8:55-11:55 of the time span that's inside the time travel. essentially the whole ending of PoA.

and if you set everything correctly, the assigned points will start moving in line with the timer, like something like that.

but right now it's so wonky, so fucking non-functional AND UGLY. i can't make it so that ctrl-click lets me add more characters, or rather, lets me add these characters. it's all, like… well, anyway, like, it's a work in progress. ! but it exists.

> also all sorts of micro-posts as I'm relistening HP

> and i've got another drabble that i can't finish writing. it's crappy, but it's being written, i don't know why the fuck. probably because i'm trying to force myself to write. because writing, probably, as a form of storytelling, i can do much faster than drawing, because drawing comics, i freacking can't. i really want to learn, but i can't. i render a goddamn picture until my eyes hurt, and then i'll do it for several more days exactly the same way on the same principle. with a comic, it feels like it shouldn't work that way. so it's tough.// meh

> what else? i also want to… i have crappy meshes that i use as, well, head references. //i won't show them because they're crappy, but they exist// and i want to make a non-crappy body for Sirius and basically throw tattoos onto it, because the tattoos are killing me. i understand how to draw a body, but i don't understand how to put tattoos on it. that kind of thing. and essentially i want to design all the tattoos and come up with a history for them, where and when they came from. well, partly i have a general story of where which ones came from, but i need the design and a chronology for all of it, and their placement on the body. first, for that i need to download base meshes and then spend a long, tedious time poking at them so it matches the physique that i'll like, that will suit me him. then somehow i'll need to paint it.... a shitload of work ahead with all that. that's another thing too.

> maybe create proper meshes for sirius and snape? that could be done, of course, just by refining the ones i already have, like the painting them by hand. but i wonder if i really need it? especially considering that i don't want to do their hair, because that's a very thankless task, i don't like it... i can make very beautiful hair, but it takes ages, and it's really hard to fix. [I HATE ENGLISH FOR HAVING TO PUT "I" IN EVERY SENTENCE] so i want to download CCi5 and just put proper textures on them.///// buuuuuuuuuuuuuut that's also a slog of at least a week, just to figure out how it all works.

~~~

right now i'm just really in the mood to ramble, but, like, if you haven't caught on, my problem is scattering my attention onto EVERYYTHING. i have napoleonic plans and napoleonic, bloody, laziness.

// the only plus is that i hyperfixate on some topic very, very hard, and it won't let me go until it becomes repulsive to me for some reason. because, say, i very rarely watch, very rarely get into any new fandoms, because, well, like, i get sucked in exactly the same way, and i just can't engage with them on a surface level. i used to do that once, when i watched absolutely every goddamn multi-season show that was around at the time, and i don't remember most of them at all, completely. but i realised that it's, like, not cool, i don't like it, and so i just fixate on one thing only.

and with HP i just keep coming back, actually, many times, because it's a classic, and HP genuinely just calms me down.// such an eternal fandom, such inexhaustible content for it, so many different generations.

like, really, i hope nothing happens and i don't move anywhere from here any time soon. just, if something happens, something BAD happens, and i don't want something BAD to happen.

first of all, thanks a lot <3

and secondly, yes, yes, of course i’m going to.

and Sirius, and the Marauders, and Lily.

well, i just need time, [and .... it just really calms me down a lot ~ currently, when i’m not in a very good mood, to be honest ~ to draw adult Severus... cause yesterday it was already the fourth one in a row going on at the moment. ahah]

>>>> yep, i’ll definitely draw teen Severus [maybe at 10-11 as well idk]. sooner or later that moment will come.

you know... i can actually list who i’ll definitely draw sooner or later, besides the ones listed above. and besides those i’ve already drawn.

> Xenophilius

> adult Remus

> Nymphadora

> Ron

> i don’t know what Hermione should look like, it’s very difficult for me with her. so for now that moment is being put off. the whole trio..

> Percy

> the Twins, most likely

> the Black Sisters

> Walburga [probably]

> Minerva ~~ her face is literally almost my teacher's face

> Albus

> perhaps Dolohov

> perhaps the Slytherin Boys. the ones that are Mulciber, Avery, Wilkes, Evan.

> Draco 100%

> i plan on Lucius, but i don’t know what he should look like. ...that’s in progress. very much in progress.

> Viktor Krum

> Fleur, probably

> Kingsley, probably

> possibly Olympe Maxime.

> possibly Firenze

but that’s enough for now. that’s what was swirling in my head and what i managed to remember in about two minutes.

but these are like very long-term plans

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Ground Level is AI Rickman on tiktok. that’s basically it.

~ above that, it’s not particularly damaging to the psyche, like, theoretically you can live with it. unpleasant, but survivable.

it's that if you're supposedly "white", they automatically see you the same way they see a "white american"

no, for fuck's sake. i don't want to be associated with them. we're not the same, we're different. we have nothing in common. the fact that we happen to have the same bloody skin colour doesn't mean anything [actually a racial prejudice? no?]

sorry, but a lot of you are bloody weirdos, and no, not everyone wants to be associated with you. that's just how it is.

... pretty frustrating... frustrating for you, i mean. because you're the ones who seem to need supporters with at least a halfway decent reputation, after doing such a spectacular job of ruining your own by acting like complete nutters with a tendency to make everything about yourselves.

sorry, but i don't want to be associated with you either. we have nothing in common. we don't share a culture, we don't share values, we don't share the same social norms, we don't understand each other, and i don't understand why we're expected to identify with you.

if you're a reasonable american, then none of this is aimed at you. i believe people like that exist.