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you are not the thoughts. you are not the body. you are not the story.

you are the awareness that watches it all. and that awareness? she’s god-coded. she’s divine. she’s unfazed. she doesn’t beg or chase she decides, and the world rearranges around her.

the 3D is not your enemy. you don’t need to fight it. you don’t need to fix anything. you just need to stop forgetting who you are.

𐚁 the void isn’t a place. 𐚁 the technique isn’t the answer. 𐚁 the power isn’t outside you. it’s always been you. it’s you Being.

put on lip gloss. take a breath. and assume with the calmness of someone who already knows she’s won.

no more spiraling. no more “trying.” no more waiting for proof. god doesn’t beg. god doesn’t check the 3D. god reclines.

𝑡h𝑒 𝑝r𝑜b𝑙e𝑚 𝑜f '𝑤h𝑒n' 𝑖n 𝑠ℎ𝑖𝑓𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔

You affirm, you visualize, you script and you eat your own brain out every day. What is the problem then? do you also need the four hour long guided meditation or do you need to bring back the star fish position?

well, It will all make sense, 'when' you are in your dr. 'When' you are in your dr, you will eat bluberries off of your favorite tree, and 'when' you are in your dr, you will run barefoot in your home's backyard. . . but what if the 'when' never arrives? not because it is impossible but because you refuse to see it. The when does not exist, it is already here. It is the present. Your dr is not a destination in a distance, it is you. It does not always enter with fireworks and cinematic shifts, it can be subtle and quiet, it can reside in the moment. Your dr is simply a frequency you tune into

You are in hogwarts, you are writing that potions essay that has been sitting on your desk for weeks right now. You are sipping champagne and gossiping with marie antoinette. You are sitting on you s/o's lap while your favorite song plays in the background. You only have to blink and accept it. You only have to pick a song from your playlist and tap on 'play'.

Oh but you can not see it? well, the 3d is not a lie. You don’t need to ignore the 3D or shame it like it’s broken. You don’t need to shut your eyes and wish harder. You just need to see what’s in front of you and stop labelling it as “not it.”

You say "In my dr, I’ll finally go on that date." but what if your dr is the you who decides to go on that date right now. What if i say it's not the reality that changes first but the belief that you are separate from it?

This is not me telling you to abandon intentional shifting. shift however your heart desires, shift using the julia method or shift using none at all. But do not let the concept of a 'when' rob you of your now. Dont hand over your power to the future. Your present already has it. Choose the things that you save for a later you now. Shifting is not jumping through portals from one reality to another, it's abandoning the illusion that they were ever separate.

happy shifting xx

HOW NIKOLAS MANIFESTS

aka: god in the war room.

aka: god in a short skirt and a threat in his mouth.

aka: divinity dressed like obsession.

aka: i don’t hope. i bend.

nikolas, being I.

here’s my short story: i am a very obsessive manifestor, and yet this is coming from someone who’s manifested the following: multiple reality shifts, getting back a lot of SPs, a house, getting people out of my life, money, appearance changes, life changes, etc.

i don’t say that shit lightly.

i’m not here giving a bullet list like a success story post.

this isn’t a “teehee look what i got :)” this is a declaration of violence. this is me saying: you don’t understand how hard i go. you don’t understand what it means when i say “it’s mine.”

because when i say it? it gets scared.

SELF CONCEPT AS A FUCKING FLAMETHROWER.

i’ve built my self concept using robotic affirming and rampages, specifically those that make you think like God.

and by God, i don’t mean some floating choir boy with light beams and flowing robes. i mean the source. the fucking code. the absolute.

i built it on rage.

i built it on desire.

i built it on “you’re not gonna fucking stop me.”

i’m not trying to “heal” my self concept. i dragged my self concept out of its grave and injected it with every affirmation i could find until it started to breathe fire.

MY MIND IS A WAR ROOM.

every thought.

every reaction.

every what if.

tracked.

monitored.

obliterated.

when my stomach flips, when doubt creeps in, when reality tries to bitchslap me into “normal”…

what do i do?

i starve the doubt.

i suffocate it with imagery so saturated and so viscerally intense that the doubt chokes on it.

“but what if he never comes back?”

“actually? he’s already back. he’s obsessed with me. want me to replay it in 4K? let me rerun the moan he made when he saw my thighs again, bitch.”

i don’t negotiate. i don’t plead.

i overtake.

i don’t argue with the 3D. i render the 4D louder, hotter, and more emotionally charged than any fear can ever hope to be. i throw glitter on it. i make it vulgar. i make it undeniable. i throw it in doubt’s face and dare it to survive.

THE SECRET IS SATURATION.

not just repeating affirmations like a drone.

but inhabiting the role so fully that even doubt starts to question itself.

you ever delude so hard your fear starts shaking? you ever affirm so loud the walls look different? that’s what the fuck i mean. i don’t say “i hope” or “i believe.” i say “i am,” and the world goes silent.

i don’t do half-belief.

i don’t just script once and walk away.

i become it.

i don’t think. i know.

i don’t want. i own.

i don’t “try.” i live.

DEATH TO THE OLD SELF.

i even do deliberate identity deaths which is something extremely important for me.

i kill the version of myself that’s a beggar if i have to.

i’ll delete every app that forces me to check what my SP is doing.

any hint of my old identity and whatever is holding me back is gonna be thrown away, i don’t care.

i’ve blocked people mid-manifestation because their presence felt like a leash. i’ve stopped entire conversations and said “no. this version of me is dead now.” i’ve rewritten myself so hard the mirror had to stutter.

and i don’t mourn those versions. i bury them under gold and move the fuck on.

I’M NOT JUST ONE METHOD. I’M THE WHOLE FUCKING POKÉDEX.

and i’m not just a one method manifestor, i do everything.

i gotta try everything once.

so yes, i do change my method six times.

yes, i do save techniques like pokémon.

but guess what? they all fucking work because i said so.

yes i SATS. yes i affirm. yes i script. yes i loop. yes i embody. yes i rage-cry into a pillow while rampaging.

and guess what? every single fucking one of those moments still manifested something. because the moment i say it’s mine, the universe doesn’t ask for a signature. it moves.

I’M UNREALISTIC. I’M LUNATIC. I’M CORRECT.

and i’m not afraid of being “unrealistic” either, i have desires bigger than the universe and i fully believe that they’re possible—no, not even that, that they’re already here.

that yacht? parked.

that man? obsessed.

that face? flawless.

that timeline? done.

that reality? mine.

that version? alive.

you don’t have to convince people when you’re the one writing the script.

THE LIE BECOMES THE TRUTH.

same with the identity death, i act like i have my desire boldly to others.

i talk about my SP.

i talk about my DR experiences.

i talk about my new appearance.

there’s no “lying” in manifestation, the lie becomes the truth and that is a fact.

(billie jean is not my lover!!!! someone plz get the ref lmao)

you call it delusion? i call it installing a new world.

YES, I DO HAVE DOUBTS. AND YES, I STILL WIN.

yes, i do have doubts. so much that i have to reread my own posts.

yes, i constantly check the 3D. but i twist it. i remind myself of my other successes. i twist the narrative, so even when i’m looking at my SP’s new post?

“he’s still obsessed with me.”

that’s it.

twist it.

to however you want.

who’s gonna stop you?

who’s gonna get into your head and tell you it’s wrong if it isn’t you?

you are the voice in your head. so fucking speak like it.

i’ve cried while manifesting and still got what i want. i’ve spiraled into a whole meltdown, journaled “this is hell,” and got what i wanted the next day. because it doesn’t fucking matter. it’s not about how clean you are. it’s about how firm you are.

I ROMANTICIZE, I FANFICTION, I DECLARE. I REBUILD.

i journal as well, often. i write down my desires in detail, or sometimes even write fanfiction about it because it helps me dwell in my desires.

i daydream with tears in my eyes and victory in my chest.

i listen to rampages like they’re love songs.

i romanticize myself to the point i start laughing out loud.

i make vision boards with dramatic filters and write captions like i’m giving the Oscars speech.

because i know it’s inevitable for me to have everything i want.

TO BE NIKOLAS IS TO BE A MACHINE OF CREATION.

i am a god in practice. not just in theory.

i don’t just say “i am.”

i breathe it.

i bleed it.

i wake up and choose it.

even when i spiral.

even when i doubt.

even when the 3D slaps me across the face, i slap back harder with my assumption.

i am not perfect.

but i persist.

and i do not lose.

so now what?

copy me.

steal me.

worship yourself the way i do.

be obsessive. be twisted. be dramatic.

romanticize the shit out of your process.

declare your results like they already paid rent.

build your god complex like a throne made of glass and gold and shards of your doubt’s dead body.

be a bitch about it.

be ruthless.

and you’ll get everything.

because of course you will.

you said so.

have some sympathy for new learners, you were just in their situation and its just downright rude to start saying peoples lives are pathetic. some times people get stuck because you’re spreading the wrong information. i understand sometimes repeated questions might be annoying but its not hard to GUIDE/SHOW someone a post you made about a certain question that could help with whatever they are struggling with.

𓇼 ⋆.˚ 𓆉 𓆝 𓆡⋆.˚ 𓇼

જ⁀➴. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁Growing up in a highly religious Hindu household I had always heard outstanding stories of gods, demons, energy, souls and the likes…and just the other day, I talked to my father’s friend, who is also a respected, inspiring and admirable Hindu priest about the theory of multiverse and he smiled, knowingly smiled, and he said ‘Aham Brahmasmi’. Which quite literally means, I am the absolute, I am the universe, the cosmos.

It blew my mind, not because I had not known or remotely heard of the concept before, I had, but hearing someone I admire and believe in so deeply say it so easily, so…effortlessly did something to my brain. I had been treating shifting like this whole big secret, a big conspiracy theory, a bigger than the sky, other worldly magic of sorts that hearing him say it oh so nonchalantly, like it was natural, I was overwhelmed with thoughts, and the more I mulled over how I am the universe, the more I knew, that I am the universe.

I thought of how in the grand tapestry of existence, everything is connected. Every universe, every cosmic possibility exists simultaneously, and there’s jivana (life) that flows through them all, binding them together. In Hindu cosmology, the idea of Yugas (ages of the world) is cyclical, ever-repeating, as if we’re living in a constant loop of creation, preservation, and dissolution. There’s no "end" in sight, just an everlasting dance of creation (and sometimes destruction, because, well... balance).

The universe in Hinduism is described as the ultimate reality, the formless, boundless, uncaptured, infinite consciousness that forms all of existence. Everything—every object, every being, every thought, emerges from it and returns to it. And when one says “Aham Brahmasmi,” they're breaking through the illusion of separation. It’s like stepping out of a dream and realizing you were the dreamer all along. It is realizing that you are the observer, the observed, and the act of observing itself.

And it is now that I do not just know it but also believe it, and it is now that I will shift, for it is now that I am shifting.

“But how? I just decide it and i doesn’t see it in front of me”

If you are questioning this, then you still don't understand. Let me explain this to you:

Manifesting is instantaneous in your 4D, which is your consciousness—the place where all creation happens. The moment you assume something as true in your mind, it is done. 3D, being a reflection of your consciousness, adjusts itself to physically manifest what you have already created internally. The time it takes for the 3D to reflect it is not a “delay,” but rather reality adjusting to your new perception.

The thing is, 3D is like a mirror: it cannot show you anything other than what you are “reflecting” in your 4D. If you are looking to 3D for immediate signs, it shows that you are still in a state of doubt, not certainty.

Think of it this way: if you plant a seed, you know that the plant already exists in potential. You don’t dig in the soil every second to check if the plant is there, right? You simply trust the process. Likewise, when you manifest, you need to rest in the certainty that 3D will inevitably reflect your internal state.

The key is to persist in the feeling that it is already yours, even before you see it in 3D. When you don't have to "see it to believe it," the reflection in the external world appears naturally, because it cannot resist your dominant state of consciousness.

expanding on "you're already there. . .you just forgot." aka the archive retrieval.

your dr already happened. this is not a theory, this is not a proposition, this is a fact. you lived it. you breathed it. the version of you that had it all??? they left the party early. now you're just retracing the steps back to the cab.

because that's what memory is. recall, retrieval, a filing cabinet you forgot you owned. and this is where everyone gets it twisted. you're not inventing a new reality, you're not willing something into existence like some desperate magician yanking at a faulty deck of cards. you're remembering. you are reconstructing something that was always there. the resistance evaporates the second you stop trying to birth a new world and start remembering the one that was always yours.

so, how do you apply this? simple. stop acting like a screenwriter drafting a speculative fiction and start acting like a historian piecing together an archive.

i , think about your dr not as an eventuality, not as a distant fantasy, but as a memory. a lived experience. the neurons have already fired, the steps have already been taken. you are just flipping through the album now, finding the details.

ii , feel the nostalgia. the deja vu. the casual inevitability. it's not "what if i get there?" it's "how could i have forgotten this?"

iii , reconstruct the feeling. what was the weather like? how did your morning coffee taste? how did people look at you? how did your body move through the space? what was your favourite insignificant little routine?

iv , search for it in your mind like you search for that one song you swear you knew in another life. don’t force it. let it surface. because it will. because it’s real. because it happened.

for law of assumption, the same principle goes. you're not hoping for love, you're remembering being loved. your subconscious doesn’t argue with memory. it doesn’t question the past. it doesn’t resist what already was. so make it so. stitch together the recollection and wear it like a bespoke suit.

this is not manifestation, not in the way people talk about it. this is retrieval. this is recollection. this is remembering the life you already lived and walking back into it like you never left.

𓇼 ⋆.˚ 𓆉 𓆝 𓆡⋆.˚ 𓇼

જ⁀➴. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ . ݁Growing up in a highly religious Hindu household I had always heard outstanding stories of gods, demons, energy, souls and the likes…and just the other day, I talked to my father’s friend, who is also a respected, inspiring and admirable Hindu priest about the theory of multiverse and he smiled, knowingly smiled, and he said ‘Aham Brahmasmi’. Which quite literally means, I am the absolute, I am the universe, the cosmos.

It blew my mind, not because I had not known or remotely heard of the concept before, I had, but hearing someone I admire and believe in so deeply say it so easily, so…effortlessly did something to my brain. I had been treating shifting like this whole big secret, a big conspiracy theory, a bigger than the sky, other worldly magic of sorts that hearing him say it oh so nonchalantly, like it was natural, I was overwhelmed with thoughts, and the more I mulled over how I am the universe, the more I knew, that I am the universe.

I thought of how in the grand tapestry of existence, everything is connected. Every universe, every cosmic possibility exists simultaneously, and there’s jivana (life) that flows through them all, binding them together. In Hindu cosmology, the idea of Yugas (ages of the world) is cyclical, ever-repeating, as if we’re living in a constant loop of creation, preservation, and dissolution. There’s no "end" in sight, just an everlasting dance of creation (and sometimes destruction, because, well... balance).

The universe in Hinduism is described as the ultimate reality, the formless, boundless, uncaptured, infinite consciousness that forms all of existence. Everything—every object, every being, every thought, emerges from it and returns to it. And when one says “Aham Brahmasmi,” they're breaking through the illusion of separation. It’s like stepping out of a dream and realizing you were the dreamer all along. It is realizing that you are the observer, the observed, and the act of observing itself.

And it is now that I do not just know it but also believe it, and it is now that I will shift, for it is now that I am shifting.

𝐇𝐢𝐠𝐡 & 𝐇𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐞𝐫

I was always in awe of how Neville manifested for others. To promise someone that you’d fulfill their wishes just with your imagination seemed crazy to me. I mean, can you imagine telling multiple people—not just one—that you’d bring their desires to life, without any ifs, buts, or maybes? And all of it, purely through imagination?

I used to wonder about the what-ifs. What if it didn’t happen at all? What if it didn’t happen in time? What if it wasn’t what they wanted? What if they got upset? What if my doubts ruined it? I’d laugh it off, saying, “Let me manifest a fistful of my own desires first.”

But now I realize—it all comes from unwavering faith and viewing yourself as higher than any state, desire, or problem. Strip them of the unnecessary importance you’ve given them. View them as just states—nothing more. You can do this too. It’s not impossible, or even hard.

Neville wasn’t some demi-god meant only to be praised and listened to. In fact, time after time, he invited people to try it for themselves. And so can you. But do it gently and lovingly. It’s meant to be effortless, not forced.

"But grant me the freedom to change it (my state)—don’t leave me in the state if I desire to get out of it. Yet many a person wallows in it, and wallows in it morning, noon, and night, and they are totally unaware they are doing it. They will say, ‘Oh, yes,’ and then five seconds later they are back in that state (Old Man). I have had interviews with people who will say to me, ‘This is what I would like, but I must first tell you . . . .’ Don’t tell me anything! Tell me what you want—they are only states! They insist on wallowing in all the things of the past.” — Neville

Here he tells how people always wanted to tell him how the circumstances were against them and telling him how the fulfillment of their desires seemed unlikely or even impossible. However, this man, Neville didn’t care about the so-called obstacles people believed stood in the way of their desires. When people came to him, listing all the reasons their desires were impossible, he cut through it all with one simple truth:

“Don’t tell me anything! Tell me what you want. They are only states.”

That’s it. That’s the key. And that’s all you need to do. Stop viewing your problems and desires as something huge. Free yourself from the stress, worry, and doubt—it’s unnecessary, and entirely self-imposed.

This is fear and pedestalization at play.

Here’s an excerpt from my journal on putting things on a pedestal:

Everything is inherently neutral. We’re the ones coloring it with meaning. We put it on a pedestal, look up at it with clasped hands and desperate eyes, wishing it was ours. We make it seem grand, impossible, out of reach, when in reality—it’s just a state.

What if you stripped away all the emotional attachment? What if you took away all the value, status, and importance you’ve assigned to it? What would be left?

A state is nothing without “I AM.”

I’ve only just realized how important it is to view yourself highly. It’s only when you see your desires and problems as huge that anxiety arises. But when you see yourself as higher than any state, you begin to understand how Neville manifested so effortlessly.

It all comes from realizing that you are greater than any desire, problem, or state. Because you are.

I AM is greater than anything—and you are that I AM.

You don’t depend on your desire. It depends on you. You don’t seek your desire. It seeks you. You think you can’t live without it, but the truth is—it can’t exist without your “I AM-ness.”

A creator is always greater than its creation. Remember that.

We’ll tackle fear in the next post. For now, try not to overthink or worry. Sit with this. Contemplate it. And most importantly, be gentle and loving with yourself.

Give yourself a big hug. A pat on the back.

I highly recommend this meditation by EdwardArtSupplyHands to reinforce this:

Pharaoh/King Meditation

…..Also love your account k bye 🫂❤️

"all I have to do is not look in the mirror or even look down" you don't have to do this! I've been there as well where i tried to avoid mirrors as much as possible. please don't fight with your 3d. your 3d is a gift you received from god(yourself). your 3d is a simulation of yourself and should be highly honored as such. I'm 100% against the "fuck the 3d, 3d is my bitch" attitude.

you’re obsessing over the 3d because:

a) you're still trying to change the 3d

ditch this mindset immediately. it won't aid you in any way. if you want to be successful, you are going to have to ditch this "i want to change the 3d, my 3d needs to change" mindset one day. there is no other way. manifesting isn’t about changing the 3d although that’s what attracts most people to this community. your goal isn’t to change the 3d. it’s not your job to change the 3d. your job is to change your self-concept aka your state of consciousness. that’s all you are concerned with. you only spiral because you think it’s your job to make it happen in the 3d, so when the 3d goes wrong, you think you must be doing something wrong.

b) you're not fulfilling your desire in imagination

desires are within and must be fulfilled within. i’ll preach this until the day i die. it’s not “once i get my desire in the 3d, i’ll be fulfilled”. no. you fulfill yourself in imagination. that’s the only place where you can truly fulfill yourself. once you fulfill yourself in imagination, you won’t look for results in the 3d because you already feel fulfilled. that’s when the 3d results suddenly seem irrelevant to you. you realize that this whole time, you didn’t actually want results in the 3d, you wanted to have it in consciousness/imagination. results in the 3d is a bonus, not your priority. desiring is a confession of not being it. so, if you’re still desiring, that’s already enough of proof that you have not fulfilled yourself within.

c) you're not identifying yourself with your true self(the invisible you) but instead with your avatar(3d self, body)

ed art’s videos and series (must read!)can explain it better than i ever can!

to your next question,

"how do I balance the 3d and 4d in my life?"

3d isn't something separate from the 4d. would you say 2d is separate from 3d? probably not. a piece of paper is 2d, and it exists WITHIN 3d. so, 2d is a part of 3d. it's the same thing. 3d is WITHIN 4d. they're not separate!

"all that you behold, though it appears without, it is within, in your imagination, of which this world of mortality is but a faint shadow" -william blake

there is no "outer world". there is nothing "outside" of you. though it appears without, it is within!! everything in the 3d appears to be without, but it is within since 3d is a tiny section that exists in 4d just like how a piece of paper(2d) exists in 3d!

there is no "balancing" the 3d life and the 4d life. you're always living in imagination. always. you can never stop imagining because imagination is who you are. this is equivalent to 2 dimensional bugs such as ants asking how to balance their life of 2d and 3d. whether they like it or not, they’re living in the 3d. but since they’re 2d beings, they can only sense 2d with their physical senses. but it still doesn’t change the fact that they’re living in this 3d world. it’s the same thing for us. 

when you see something you dislike in the 3d and think to yourself "ugh! i hate this! why is it like this?", where is that taking place? in imagination, in your consciousness!! everything and everyone in the 3d penetrate your brain. so, it is in your brain, in your consciousness/imagination(i don't believe in brains but you get what i mean). everything you experience in the 3d, you experience through your consciousness. everything is consciousness.

the only thing you can do when you see something undesirable in the 3d, is to not accept it and be indifferent to it. the key for me is not identifying myself with it.

there was a girl who lived in neville's time and went to neville's lecture and asked him how she can change her undesirable circumstances. she went on and on to explain her situation. and you know what neville said? he smiled and said, "don't accept it". she then realized that no matter what’s going on around her, she was under no obligation to accept it as final. she started focusing on the fulfillment of her desire instead of her circumstances, and she was able to manifest in 2 weeks. 

if there’s something in the 3d that doesn’t deserve my precious attention, i simply do not identify myself with it. there was recently a family drama where my grandma had a beef with my aunt and she called my mom crying blah blah blah. what did i do? i didn’t identify myself with it. there was no need to resist or fight with it. i simply do not identify myself with anything that does not serve me or make me feel good. 

say you want hazel eyes. but in the 3d, you have brown eyes. you identify yourself with your inner self, which you always have been, and fulfill your desire in imagination/consciousness only. then you’re conscious of having hazel eyes and have this inner conviction that you have hazel eyes because you do. then you catch your reflection in the mirror and see brown eyes. what do you do? don’t identify yourself with it. 3d is a magnified mirror of your (inner) SELF. so, you seeing brown eyes in the 3d is simply a remnant of the state you were in. but you’re no longer in the state of having brown eyes. therefore, it shouldn’t bother you in any way. you simply don’t identify yourself with it. plus, when you fulfill your desire in imagination and identify yourself with imagination, the 3d no longer bothers you because your desire feels so real. you can’t even deny it.