Your love will be safe with me

It wasn't love at first sight

But immediate belonging

You felt like home

A single lighthouse,

Guiding my ship to shore

Safe from the choppy tides

Catching my sails

Carrying me inside to warm blankets

I don’t know

If I ever was your destination

Or just a place to rest

I don’t think I’ll ever know

You told me someday we'd marry

When I imagined the day I walked down the aisle

You were always at the other end

Handsome, waiting under an arch of flowers

Peonies, and blush roses

I imagined I'd be crying

Floating down the aisle

My white dress sweeping the satin runner

Guiding me home

To you

And now I'm alone

The day after you left me

I threw out my mattress

It didn't feel like mine

It was a queen sized reminder that I was sleeping alone

You're the cold pillows

On the vacant side of my bed

You're the abandoned promises

That I'll slowly forgive you for

You're the moments that I especially feel your absence

The ones I'll eventually share with someone else

I'll slowly let go

You'll feel so far away from me

Till I run into you 10 years from now

Pushing a cart at a grocery store

And I wonder if you'd still feel like home

A mesmerizing brown

I drown

and lose myself

Your arms

Anchors

That hold me tight

I do not fight

I take a deep breath

And sigh against your cherry lips

I’m twine wrapped around your fingers

Twisting like a game of cats cradle

Dancing off your finger tips

Woven into a delicate web

And as I lay,

Like a warm meal

On a spinners plate

Subcomed to your venom,

And yet

I’ll relish in

Your poison, love

Longing to be yours forever

Fireworks

When you kissed me

I spoke loud

Maybe I drank too much

And you grew tired

You were quiet

I'm sorry I spoke over you

I didn't mean to silence you

I was afraid

That you'd figure out I'm boring

A firecracker that only lights off once

Hiding behind bad jokes

And glitter eyeshadow

Maybe I was too much

Or too little

But you fell in love

Once with me

And then with her

I wasn't enough