Eric

I beccame a nihilist, planned the end of the world, became a fascist for a couple of days, then full on n*zi after that while writing down names like I'm Kira on my school textbook which my prof found and became gravely concerned about me. Thankfully I only wrote my revolutionary plans for the world which involved bombing certain places internationally with homemade nukes.

I will never be the same ever again.

Especially when justice is not being served at all.

It's genuinely hard to enjoy anything and everything I used to enjoy when you know these kinds of shit are happening on the daily.

I've always known that these sht exist but to see it? To have names of those who have comitted such vicious and vile acts? And the name of victims who are fearing for their lives for speaking up and are fighting for something that are already right in our faces?

It's sickening... And it makes me so mad.

I have religious trauma. I cannot — even to save my life — enter a Church or listen to a sermon without feeling an enormous amount of guilt and fear. But that sht was so terrifying I became genuinely hopless. Like the world went black and white for a moment and... the concept of God was something that got me out of there. I am still agnostic to the core but for the sake of having a written guideline I am a Catholic. And for the sake of the existence of Hell too.

This isn't politics. This is about morality, ethics, and human decency which have left those monster's souls. Don't get distracted.

I beccame a nihilist, planned the end of the world, became a fascist for a couple of days, then full on n*zi after that while writing down names like I'm Kira on my school textbook which my prof found and became gravely concerned about me. Thankfully I only wrote my revolutionary plans for the world which involved bombing certain places internationally with homemade nukes.

I will never be the same ever again.

Especially when justice is not being served at all.

It's genuinely hard to enjoy anything and everything I used to enjoy when you know these kinds of shit are happening on the daily.

I've always known that these sht exist but to see it? To have names of those who have comitted such vicious and vile acts? And the name of victims who are fearing for their lives for speaking up and are fighting for something that are already right in our faces?

It's sickening... And it makes me so mad.

I have religious trauma. I cannot — even to save my life — enter a Church or listen to a sermon without feeling an enormous amount of guilt and fear. But that sht was so terrifying I became genuinely hopless. Like the world went black and white for a moment and... the concept of God was something that got me out of there. I am still agnostic to the core but for the sake of having a written guideline I am a Catholic. And for the sake of the existence of Hell too.