I'm a fan of various movies and TV shows and love to create things. My current obsessions are Narnia and Caspeter :) I post all my own vids, edits and fics here on this Tumblr plus I have another Tumblr where I reblog all the awesome stuff I find :) linktr.ee/equixen
All my stuff grouped by fandom. Most links go to the related Tumblr post but a few of my older videos arenāt on Tumblr so those links go straight to YouTube.
The Chronicles of Narnia - Caspian/Peter
Fan videos:
The Union
O Night Divine
Remembering You
The Great War
Run To You - Original Post / RetrospectiveĀ
The Reunion
Immortals
Before You Go - Original Post / Retrospective
What Hurts the Most
Fan fiction:
You Take Me Higher
What Stays and What Fades Away
Safe In Your Hands
Our Hands Are Tied
Before You Go
Live With Me Forever Now
Image edits
Modern AU almost kiss (manip)
Desktop wallpaper 4
Theyāre the same picture (meme)
Kisses in the dark (manip)
Before You Go armour scene (manip)
Kiss in an 1890ā²s AU (manip)
Desktop wallpaper 3
Not needed here anymore (manip)
Goodbye/Hello (edit)
Desktop wallpaper 2
Desktop wallpaper 1
Other:
Ocean/Sun Headcanons
The Chronicles of Narnia - Other
Fan videos:
Poison & Wine - Edmund/Sanya [OC]
Keep Us Connected - Susan Pevensie (The Last Battle)
Goodbye - Lucy, Edmund, Susan and Peter
My own merch creations:
2024 Narnia calendar
Narnia Poster
Doctor Who
Fan video: Hold My Hand ā 13th Doctor/Yaz
Fan video: My Once In A Lifetime ā Doctor/Rose
Fan video: Itās Out of My Hands ā 9th Doctor and Clara (AU)
Fan video: Beside You - Amy/Rory
Fan video: Hurricane ā The Doctor
Fan video: Youāre Everything ā 11th Doctor/River Song
Fan video: Silence Is All You Know - 11th Doctor/River Song
Fan video: Here With Me ā 10th Doctor/Rose
Fan video: I Do (Cherish You) ā Doctor/Rose
Marvel Cinematic Universe
Fan video: Unconditionally ā Natasha/Bruce
Fan video: Almost Love ā Steve/Bucky
Fan video: Stay ā Steve/Bucky
Class
Fan video: Never Gonna Be Alone ā Charlie/ Matteusz
Fan video: Sine From Above ā Charlie and Miss Quill
Poster: The Cast
Xena: Warrior Princess ā Xena/Gabrielle
Fan video: Space Between
Fan video: Who Knew
Fan video: End of The World
BBC Sherlock ā Sherlock/John
Fan video: All of Me
Fan video: The Truth In Your Eyes
Adam Lambert
Desktop wallpaper 1
Desktop wallpaper 2
Desktop wallpaper 3
Queer As Folk
Desktop wallpaper ā Ben/Michael
Desktop wallpaper ā Brian/Justin
Fan video: Say When ā Ted
Fan video: Itās Complicated ā Brian/Justin
Fan video: Pride ā Brian/Justin
Fan video: All That Iām Asking For ā Brian/Justin
Fan video: Permanent ā Brian/Justin
Fan video: Iād Come For You ā Brian/Justin
Other:
Fan video: Lose You Now ā How I Met Your Mother - Barney/Robin
Poster: Team Free Will - Supernatural
Fan video: Somebody To Die For ā Good Omens - Crowley/Aziraphale
Fan video: Better Than I Know Myself ā The Witcher - Geralt/Jaskier
Fan video: Always Remember Us This Away ā Outlander - Jamie/Claire
Fan video: So Cold ā The Book Thief
Fan video: All About Us ā The Newtown Girls - Alex/Scarlet
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Iāve been getting back into working on my latest Caspeter fanfic in my free time this week which has been SO GREAT! Itās always so daunting getting back into writing after having a bit of a break. And this particular fanfic has had quite a few breaks while Iāve been writing it for one reason or another. I initially started drafting a few scenes for this one back in January before getting distracted by other projects š
But my main reason for this post is that I had a bit of a read of one of my previous one-shots today for fun. I was totally expecting to be cringing all over the place but, other than discovering a typo (which was the kind of typo that had me wondering how in the freakinā heck I could possibly have missed it during one of my MANY re-reads before posting š¤£), I actually⦠loved it!?
Iāve seen some writers talk about enjoying reading their own fanfics after posting because they basically wrote what they wanted to read in that fandom but I honestly didnāt expect this to hold up for me as well. Iām usually so critical of everything I do and given that writing is still quite a daunting activity for me, I thought Iād still be quite harsh on my own work even after not looking at it for ages.
But that wasnāt the case at all. And I personally love that I was able to look back at one of my previous fanfics and actually enjoy reading it. And that I also felt pride for what Iād accomplished as Iām building on my writing skills š
So yeah, just a bit of a happy ramble about my writing that I felt compelled to share today š
Having had a few discussions with a couple of my Caspeter friends about their respective AU fics recently, it reminded me of this Caspeter manip which has been sitting on my computer as a WIP since January so I thought it was about time that I finally finished it off and shared š
So, @an-angels-fury and @sarahsartedits, this one is especially for you two! ā¤ļø
Rating: E
Fandom: The Chronicles of Narnia
Pairing: Caspian/Peter
Summary: Ten years have passed since the Pevensies returned to Narnia and Caspian was crowned a King alongside them. After a day of non-stop meetings, Caspian and Peter are feeling a bit restless so, when the opportunity arises to release some of their pent-up energy, they have but one thought on their minds. What starts out as a simple tryst though, quickly turns into a competition to see who can make the other come first. Later in the day however, all bets are off.
Wow! It feels like only yesterday I was posting about my first full year in the Caspeter/Narnia fandom and here I am, having now spent another year with you all.
Iāve been thinking a lot about what I might post to commemorate my second year in the fandomāif anythingāand interestingly, it was actually a conversation with my Mum that gave me the answer.
She was asking why I was so excited about having been in the Narnia fandom for two years when I could be celebrating the twenty odd years that Iāve loved the TV show, Xena: Warrior Princess, my very first fandom. And my answer was that it wasnāt just the length of time Iāve been in the Narnia fandom that I was celebrating but also the quality of time Iāve spent in this fandom.
Of course, Xena will always be so special to me for many reasons. The show was such a big part of my life back then and it was the first piece of media that got me into fandom life (at least 23 years ago now). It also got me through a REALLY tough stage of my life as I was getting to the end of my schooling. It was my first foray into reading fanfic (and even writing one solitary fanfic myself for a school assignment) and discovering the magic of fanvids before I went on to making my own. Xena and Gabrielle were my first ship that I became that emotionally invested in and I still adore them to this day. It was also the only fandom where I had the good fortune of meeting fellow Xena fans in my own city, all of whom became really good friends. We had regular catchups to watch episodes together and even travelled to USA together to attend a Xena convention and meet the actors.
It would definitely not be an exaggeration to say the Xena fandom was my life for several years. But, as with all things, it didnāt last forever and I eventually moved onto other fandoms. And there have been a LOT of fandoms over the last 23 years. All for varying lengths of time and with varying degrees of involvement. Some where I was more of a lurker and simply read fic and watched fanvids by other editors and others where I actually made and shared my own fanvids. And only a few where I was brave enough to put myself out there a bit more and get to know other fans and make some friends. Fandom highlights since Xena include Smallville, Doctor Who, Queer As Folk (US 2000 version), BBC Sherlock, the MCU (mainly Captain America but I loved the entire world) and Supernatural.
But with Narnia, it's been different in a lot of ways.Ā Ā
It's the longest I've been continuously involved in a single fandom in a long time. It's the first fandom in more than ten yearsāI thinkāwhere I've been inspired to come out of lurkdom and engage with other fans again and Iāve made some really wonderful friends as a result. I've also been significantly more inspired in the Narnia fandom than any other fandom EVER. In that I recently passed the milestone of having made more fanvids for Narnia than any other fandom (12 for Narnia vs my previous record of 9 which I achieved for both Doctor Who and Queer as Folk). AND Narnia is the first and only fandom to inspire me to write my own fanfic since that one attempt for Xena twenty years ago. Also, while itās not official because I havenāt yet posted my latest fanfic (itās still a WIP), I can now say Iāve written more than 100,000 words for Caspeter across all my fanfics combined. For someone who, a mere two years ago, thought Iād never write fanfic again, this actually blows my mind and I am so very proud of this fact.
So yeah, my life has been so enriched by this fandom in sooo many waysāsomething that Iāll always be grateful forāand thatās the reason why Iām acknowledging another year in this fandom.
And whether you are someone who has simply enjoyed my work in passing or someone who has now become a close friend (you know who you are) or somewhere in between, I thank all of you for being part of my Caspeter/Narnia journey for the last two years and for helping to share the Caspeter and Narnia love with me/us. This fandom is the best and, with many more Caspeter and Narnia projects in the works, I canāt wait to see what the next twelve months bring.
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Spoiler warning: This video is based on and contains plot spoilers for @eds-gryff's fanfic, āAllianceā (first book in the āAllianceā series, all links below) and includes sequences that represent the ending of that storyline with a teensy glimpse at their future later in the overall Alliance series.
Fandom: The Chronicles of Narnia
Pairing: Edmund / Sanya [OC] (Edmanya)
Song: āPoison & Wineā by The Civil Wars
This video is dedicated to @eds-gryff and Iām also posting this on the 1-year anniversary of the day that I started reading this series. :D
Well, I donāt think Iāve ever read fanfic for a pairing with an OC before and, when I first joined the Narnia fandom, I certainly never expected to be so invested in any pairing that wasnāt Caspeter. But I quickly came across eds-gryff work through her Caspeter edits and manips and soon became obsessed with her amazing Edmanya manips/edits as well. This prompted me to start reading āAllianceā and gosh, was it a ride. I think I read the whole series over 4-5 months and I can honestly say that this series and characters have come to mean so much to me since then.
Sanya is an amazing character in her own right. And Edmund, a character who I didnāt fully connect with as much as the other Pevensies when originally rewatching these movies in 2023 but one whom I have come to appreciate so much more through her writing. Also, the way that eds-gryff wove their story into canon so seamlessly is absolutely amazing. It really felt like Sanya was there all along in canon, just slightly out of frame (or off the page). And I canāt not mention her versions of Peter, Caspian, Susan and Lucy and other original characters such as Jem, Selene, Seraphina, Sameer, Bonnie⦠the list goes on⦠I adored all of them!
So, as for the video itself⦠this is a mix of some moments where Iāve tried to represent specific scenes from the fanfic itselfāsome of which were definitely inspired by eds-gryffās incredible manips and others that I cobbled together from other scenes in the Narnia and Aladdin films (eg. Marwan Kenzari as Jafar is standing in for Rabadash instead of his official faceclaim, Shahid Kapoor)āand others where I have just put two scenes together simply because they look like their backgrounds match while also working with a particular lyric. :)
I hope you all enjoy!
The Alliance Series:
- Alliance
- The Heirs
- Moonshine
- Fairytale?
- eds-gryffās Instagram (for all the Edmanya edits)
Fandom: The Chronicles of Narnia
Pairing: Caspian / Peter ( Caspeter )
Music: āThe Door In The Airā and āThe Wardrobeā by Harry Gregson-Williams
Video links: YouTube | My Google Drive
This is an extended version of the love scene between Caspian and Peter that is featured in my āO Night Divineā fanvid. This has been edited as though itās a scene from the movie with a small amount of dialogue and some musical score.
There's no direct embed for YouTube this time as I have made the decision to age restrict it on YouTube. I don't consider it to be too explicit but as this depicts a love scene between Caspian and Peter that's a bit NSFW (largely edited using scenes from Dorian Gray, My Sweet Audrina and Red, White and Royal Blue), I have erred on the side of caution to avoid being kicked off that platform. Which is also why I'm not uploading it directly to Tumblr either.
So, if you're logged into a YouTube account and over 18, you can check out the video on YouTube and if you don't have a YouTube account, you can check out the video on my Google Drive.
See below the cut for a summary of the storyline.
Just to clarify what is going on if you havenāt seen the other video⦠After the battle is over and celebrations have begun, Peter retires to his bedchamber and Caspian soon follows. Alone together for the first time since before the battle and relieved they both made it through, all their pent-up desires quickly flood to the surface and they share a night of passion. The following morning, Caspian wakes up alone and goes to find Peter which leads into the end of the movie.
Fandom: The Chronicles of Narnia
Pairing: Caspian / Peter ( Caspeter )
Song: āO Holy Night [Epic Trailer Version]ā by J2 (feat. Anthony Fedorov)
Video links: YouTube | My Google Drive
Hi all, today I bring you my latest Caspeter fanvid! This is the one I mentioned in this post that was keeping me up at night when I first came up with the idea :)
There's no direct embed for YouTube this time as I have made the decision to age restrict it on YouTube. I don't consider it to be too explicit but this one does depict a love scene between Caspian and Peter that's a bit NSFW (largely edited using scenes from Dorian Gray, My Sweet Audrina and Red, White and Royal Blue) so I have erred on the side of caution to avoid being kicked off that platform. Which is also why I'm not uploading the video directly to Tumblr either.
So, if you're logged into a YouTube account and over 18, you can check out the video on YouTube and if you don't have a YouTube account, you can check out the video on my Google Drive.
And, because Iām an overachiever, I also edited an extended version of the love scene as though itās a scene from the movie with a small amount of dialogue and some musical score. You can find links to that video here.
See below the cut for the inspiration behind this video and a summary of the storyline.
I came across this cover for āO Holy Nightā while watching āA Paris Christmas Waltzā during my recent Christmas movie marathon and the idea for this video instantly became stuck in my head. Despite this being another song with religious connotations, I have once again made this all about Caspian and Peter and their relationship :) Ā
To clarify the story, we start with an older Caspian pondering his past which quickly flashes back to the night of Miraz and Prunaprismiaās child being born and leads up to Caspian meeting Peter. Their relationship plays out like in the movie with a first kiss occurring just before the duel. After the battle is over and celebrations have begun, Peter retires to his bedchamber and Caspian soon follows. Alone together for the first time since before the battle and relieved they both made it through, all their pent-up desires quickly flood to the surface and they share a night of passion. The following morning, Caspian wakes up alone and then the big farewell takes place. But, just before Peter passes through the archway, Caspian calls out to him and Peter turns back. We then flash forward again to the scene from the start of the video to find out that Caspian and Peter are still together in Narnia, quietly talking about the events of their past.
So, yeah, I really wanted to try editing a happy ending for them with this video and I hope the flow of the last few clips doesnāt feel too random :)
It wasn't like I didn't already have enough Narnia projects on the go...
a Caspeter fanvideo that I've barely started
another Narnia fanvideo that is close to being finished, and
a Caspeter fic oneshot that I've finished drafting and am now starting to review
...but no, my brain has decided today that it's time to start working on another Caspeter fanvideo entirely after hearing this song in a movie tonight.
And now it's about 2:45 am. I've been trying to get to sleep for a couple of hours now and I have work tomorrow but I just can't get this latest fanvideo idea out of my head. š¤Ŗ
Fandom: The Chronicles of Narnia
Pairing: Caspian/Peter
Song: āRemembering Youā by Steven Curtis Chapman
After listening to the āMusic Inspired Byā album for The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe (and despite knowing āRemembering Youā to be about Aslan), this song very quickly jumped out at me as having Caspeter vibes. As time went on and I listened to the song more, that feeling only grew so Iām pleased that Iāve finally been able to make a Caspeter fanvid out of this one :)
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Inspired by a discussion with @eds-gryff where we both agreed that there are scenes where Caspian looks at Peter the same as he does Susan and I instantly had a light-bulb moment about this meme.
Welcome to part 2 of my Narnia fanvid retrospectives which consist of me talking about a specific fanvid Iāve made and how Iāve interpreted the lyrics. This time, Iāll be talking about my second Caspeter fanvid, āBefore You Goā, which I uploaded almost one and a half years ago now [original post].
Before I get into it, I just wanted to say that this one is especially for @an-angels-fury because she enjoyed my retrospective post for āRun To Youā and said that āBefore You Goā is her other favourite of my Caspeter fanvids. š
Okay, so this one actually has an interesting origin story and thatās because this fanvid was very close to being my first Caspeter fanvid and also very close to never happening at all.
Let me explain⦠š
When I first became obsessed with Caspeter, it wasnāt long till I decided to try making a fanvid about them. I started by going through my music and eventually narrowed it down to two songs. This one and āWhat Hurts the Mostā. I liked both songs very much so it was quite possible that āBefore You Goā would have been the first one to be edited although I ultimately decided on āWhat Hurts the Mostā.
As for why this fanvid was almost never made at all⦠well thatās because, at the time, I thought Narnia and Caspeter would go the way of many of my other recent fandoms up till that point. That I would do one fanvid, maybe two if I was lucky, but eventually either my interest in that fandom would wane or something new would come along to take its place as my latest obsession. So, I knew that by picking one song over the other, it was quite possible the second one might never have been made.
Well, we all know how that turned out. 𤣠Several more fanvids (and even fanfics) later, Caspeter and Narnia ended up becoming so important to me for various reasons (Iāve written more about this in another post if thatās of interest) which led to Caspeter becoming my OTP of OTPs. š„°
Alright, now onto the lyrics. This fanvid is all from Caspianās POV.
āI fell by the wayside like everyone elseā
I feel like there are a couple of ways this line can be looked at for Caspian. Firstly, itās Caspian personally feeling like he doesnāt measure up to the High King from Narniaās golden age. And secondly, that Caspian thinks that Peter sees him as less-than because of his Telmarine heritage. Also, I still really like the visuals I chose for this sequence⦠of Caspian deferring to the higher status of the Pevensies and hanging back as they enter the How for the first time.
āI hate you, I hate you, I hate you, but I was just kidding myselfā
Yep, Peter drives Caspian absolutely crazy in the beginning. Two young men with their own axes to grind and who are out to prove themselves. Caspian both hates how stubborn Peter is during the strategising at the How, but also canāt help seeing beyond that tough exterior that Peter puts up. Someone who is both more and less than what Caspian grew up hearing about in all those stories. Because Peter might not be all that he imagined in terms of the magnificent battle-hardened warrior (at least not at first glance) but heās also more human and more beautiful and has more heart than Caspian ever could have imagined.
āOur every moment, I start to replace, 'cause now that they're gone, all I hear are the words that I needed to sayā
Despite the connection they share, their time together is over too soon. And once Peter is gone, Caspian canāt help regretting all the things he never told Peter while he had the chance. While Iāve had multiple versions of what Caspian might regret after Peter leaves Narnia in my head for different projects over the last year and a half, when I was editing this fanvid, I was very much imagining this to be that Caspian never told Peter that he loved him.
āWhen you hurt under the surface, like troubled water running cold. Well, time can heal but this won'tā
I think this was the line that first made me take notice of this song as a potential Caspeter fanvid. The way it reflects their regret over the loss of so many lives after the failed castle raid. It is something that will probably haunt both of them for the rest of their lives. And even though we had no closeup of Caspianās face when they escape the courtyard, I was rather pleased that I was able to fake one by using a shot of Caspian from the start of the film which I still think works rather well. š
āSo, before you go, was there something I could've said to make your heart beat better? If only I'd have known you had a storm to weatherā
Apart from his siblingsāwho Peter could never hope to hide anything fromāI feel like Peter is the kind of person whoād keep his troubles close to his chest. So, for most of the time that Caspian and Peter would have known each other, thereās so much about Peter that wouldāve been a mystery to Caspian. And at the top of that list would be the hardships Peter had faced as a result of being forced back into his old life after living in Narnia for so long. Constantly being underestimated by the adults in his life as well as being bullied and belittled by his peers.
āSo, before you go, was there something I could've said to make it all stop hurting? It kills me how your mind can make you feel so worthlessā
There are definitely times when Peter feels worthless. But for the first instance of this line, I chose a moment where Peter feels like heās worth less than others. And what better representation is there than the, āwhat about your own future?ā deleted scene between Caspian and Peter. Caspian learns for the first time just how much Peter is willing to sacrifice for those he loves and for the greater good. Even his own life. That thought alone scares Caspian more than anything so he prompts Peter to think about his own future in the hopes that it will give him something else to fight for.
āSo, before you go, would we be better off by now, if I'd have let my walls come down? Maybe I guess we'll never know, you know, you knowā
The moment when it all comes to an end. Caspian has just been crowned King and is looking forward to getting to know Peter away from the hardships of war. Just seeing where these feelings take them. But then Peter drops the bombshell that theyāre leaving and Caspian canāt do a thing to stop it. All he has left now is regret. Regret over all those missed opportunities where he could have said how he felt but didnāt as well as wondering what could have been if he had. š¢ And I still rather love that sequence for, āI guess we'll never know, you know, you know,ā where it looks like Peter is kicking himself for not being brave enough to say something to Caspian when theyād had a moment upon first entering Corneliusā office. š
āBefore you go, was there something I could've said to make your heart beat better? If only I'd have known you had a storm to weatherā
When Caspian finds Peter during his and Susanās talk with Aslan, he can see that something isnāt right with Peter. He wants to help but how can he when he never knew the depths of what Peter, a king to a nation that had been home to him and his siblings for 15 years, had dealt with by being flung back into their own world against his wishes. A loss of self, of purpose and of feeling like he truly belonged.
āSo, before you go, was there something I could've said to make it all stop hurting? It kills me how your mind can make you feel so worthlessā
And now we come to the second instance of this line where I focus on a moment when Peter feels worthless. Of course, no one is harder on Peter then Peter himself. As the High King, he has the weight of the world on his shoulders and he when he messes up, he feels the shame of it in every fibre of his being. After the failed castle raid, and the subsequent run-in with Jadis, Caspian starts to see a side of Peter that he never had before. The side that makes mistakes and, in his darkest moments, doubts his value. And that only makes him feel for Peter all the more and wish he knew the right things to say that would make Peter feel otherwise.
āSo, before you goā
And lastly the ending. What can I say about the ending that hasnāt already been said. I mean, between Peterās, āweāre not really needed here anymore,ā and Caspianās, āI will look after it until you return,ā has there ever been a scene where two people who love each other have said so much and yet so little at the same time?? They were so close to having it all and now theyāre being torn apart as Peter walks out of Caspianās life, never to return. š¢
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And on that note, I think Iāll leave it there. Iāve had so many feelings about these two over the last year and a half and, with yet more fic/vid ideas percolating in my mind, I donāt think that will be ending anytime soon. š
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Rating: E
Fandom: The Chronicles of Narnia
Pairing: Caspian/Peter
Summary: On the verge of discovering Aslanās Country, Peter learns his time with Caspian is about to come to an end. Despite that, he still has one purpose left to fulfil.
Spoiler warning: This is an alternate ending for 'Our Hands Are Tiedā and branches off from the main story during chapter 16. While I do believe this can be read and enjoyed on its own without having read the main story, it does contain some spoilers for certain story elements leading up to chapter 16 and a small amount of required knowledge will be discussed in the author's note once you click beyond this point š
Yes, I'm late posting this on Tumblr but @an-angels-fury's beautiful playlist for this fic has inspired me to finally share it here officially. š This fic is complete with 7 chapters.
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Have I really made another playlist based on a wonderful Caspeter fanfic written by the one and only @equixen? HELL YES š!!!!!
No, seriously, my heart is exploding with love for this beautiful story and I don't know what to do with it š„¹š! I just hope this playlist expresses at least a fraction of all the emotions I felt throughout my reading of "What Stays and What Fades Away" š (Warning: This fic serves as an alternate ending to the story "Our Hands Are Tied", which you all should definitely check it out too šš!!!).
P.S.: The 6th song in this playlist was already used in the first one, but I felt the need to include it here as well because the lyrics fit the narrative so perfectly to the point of making me cry all over again š.
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing / Watch you smile while you are sleeping / While you're far away and dreaming / I could spend my life in this sweet surrender / I could stay lost in this moment forever / Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure / Don't wanna close my eyes / I don't wanna fall asleep / 'Cause I'd miss you baby / And I don't wanna miss a thing / 'Cause even when I dream of you / The sweetest dream would never do / I'd still miss you baby / And I don't wanna miss a thing / Lying close to you, feeling your heart beating / And I'm wondering what you're dreaming / Wondering if it's me you're seeing / Then I kiss your eyes / And thank God we're together / And I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever / Forever and ever
No Light, No Light - Florence + The Machine
You are the hole in my head / You are the space in my bed / You are the silence in between / What I thought and what I said / You are the night-time fear / You are the morning when it's clear / When it's over you're the start / You're my head, you're my heart / No light, no light in your bright blue eyes / I never knew daylight could be so violent / A revelation in the light of day / You can't choose what stays and what fades away / And I'd do anything to make you stay / No light, no light (no light) / Tell me what you want me to say
What About Angels - Birdy
We know full well there's just time / So is it wrong to dance this line? / If your heart was full of love / Could you give it up? / 'Cause what about, what about angels / They will come, they will go and make us special / Don't give me up / Don't give me up / How unfair, it's just our luck / Found something real that's out of touch / But if you'd searched the whole wide world / Would you dare to let it go? / 'Cause what about, what about angels / They will come, they will go, make us special / Don't give me up / Don't give me up
Talk Me Down - Troye Sivan
I wanna sleep next to you / But that's all I wanna do right now / And I wanna come home to you / But home is just a room full of my safest sounds / 'Cause you know that I can't trust myself with my 3 A.M. shadow / I'd rather fuel a fantasy than deal with this alone / I wanna sleep next to you / But that's all I wanna do right now / So come over now and talk me down / I wanna hold hands with you / But that's all I wanna do right now / And I wanna get close to you / 'Cause your hands and lips still know their way around / And I know I like to draw that line, when it starts to get too real / But the less time that I spend with you, the less you need to heal / I wanna sleep next to you / But that's all I wanna do right now / So come over now and talk me down
Love Me Like There's No Tomorrow - Freddie Mercury
You had to kill the conversation / You always had the upper hand / Got caught in love and stepped in sinking sand / You had to go and ruin all our plans / Packed your bags and you're leaving home / Got a one-way ticket and you're all set to go / But we have one more day together, so / Love me like there's no tomorrow / Hold me in your arms, tell me you mean it / This is our last goodbye and very soon it will be over / But today just love me like there's no tomorrow / I guess we drift alone in separate ways / I don't have all that far to go / God knows I learnt to play the lonely man / I've never felt so low in all my life / We were born to be just losers / So I guess there's a limit on how far we go / But we only have one more day together so / Love me like there's no tomorrow
Who Wants To Live Forever - Queen
There's no chance for us / It's all decided for us / This world has only one sweet moment / Set aside for us / Who wants to live forever? / Who wants to live forever? / Who dares to love forever? / When love must die? / But touch my tears with your lips / Touch my world with your fingertips / And we can have forever / And we can love forever / Forever is our today / Who wants to live forever? / Who wants to live forever? / Forever is our today / Who waits forever anyway?
If I Never Knew You - Jon Secada and Shanice
If I never knew you / If I never felt this love / I would have no inkling of / How precious life can be / And if I never held you / I would never have a clue / How at last I'd find in you / The missing part of me / In this world so full of fear / Full of rage and lies / I can see the truth so clear / In your eyes, so dry your eyes / And I'm so grateful to you / I'd have lived my whole life through / Lost forever / If I never knew you / If I never knew you / I'd be safe but half as real / Never knowing I could feel / A love so strong and true / I'm so grateful to you / I'd have lived my whole life through / Lost forever / If I never knew you / I thought our love would be so beautiful / Somehow we made the whole world bright / I never knew that fear and hate could be so strong / All they'd leave us were these whispers in the night / But still my heart is singing / We were right
Come What May - Ewan McGregor and Nicole Kidman
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place / Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace / Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste / It all revolves around you / And there's no moutain too high / No river too wide / Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side / Storm clouds may gather / And stars may collide / But I love you / I love you / Until the end of time / Come what may / Come what may / I will love you / Until my dying day
You Said You'd Grow Old With Me - Michael Schulte
I'd like to say, "I'm okay", but I'm not / I try, but I fall / Close my mind, turn it off / But I can't be sober, I cannot sleep / You've got your peace now, but what about me? / Thought we had the time, had our lives / Now you'll never get older, older / Didn't say goodbye, now I'm frozen in time / Getting colder, colder / One last word / One last moment / To ask you why / You left me here behind / You said you'd grow old with me / We had plans, we had visions, now I can't see ahead / We were one, we were golden, forever, you said / But I can't be sober, I cannot sleep / You've got your peace now, but what about me?
Farewell, My Love - Lunatica
I've been thinking about the good times / And I've cried a lake of tears / If losing you is just a nightmare / I hope I'll wake up by your side / Farewell, my love / Forgive the things I've done to you / May your days be warm and bright / May your journey lead you to the light / So many words been left unspoken / And some words were far too much / Maybe sometimes love is hurting / But it's the sweetest pain I know / Farewell, my love / Forgive the things I've done to you / May your days be warm and bright / May your journey lead you to the light
Evermore - Dan Stevens
I rage against the trials of love / I curse the fading of the light / Though s(he)'s already flown so far beyond my reach / S(He)'s never out of sight / Now I know s(he)'ll never leave me / Even as s(he) fades from view / S(He) will still inspire me / Be a part of everything I do / Wasting in my lonely tower / Waiting by an open door / I'll fool myself s(he)'ll walk right in / And as the long, long nights begin / I'll think of all that might have been / Waiting here for evermore
I Will Always Love You - Whitney Houston
If I should stay / I would only be in your way / So I'll go, but I know / I'll think of you every step of the way / And I will always love you / I will always love you / You / My darling, you / Bittersweet memories / That is all I'm taking with me / So goodbye, please don't cry / We both know I'm not what you, you need / And I will always love you / I will always love you / I hope life treats you kind / And I hope you have all you've dreamed of / And I wish you joy and happiness / But above all this, I wish you love / And I will always love you
11:11 - Ben Barnes
Is it late? / 11 minutes past 11 / It's both always but never our time / Nothing to regret / The rest just might be heaven / You're always but never really mine / You stopped my heart from fifty feet / It pumped and sang and skipped a beat / And when I sleep my soul you keep / I wish for you to be happy / I wish for you to be free / I wish for you to be fearless / That's wishes one, two and three / And I won't wish to be yours or for you to be mine / But I'll wish them all for you every time
I can't believe it!!! To have this wonderful playlist dedicated to my fic is a real gift!! And the beautiful mood board too!!! š«¶ Thank you so much @an-angels-fury!!! š I love all of this so much!
Check out this gorgeous Caspeter fanart that I commissioned the amazingly talented @wannastayugly (aka theviscountjask on Twitter) to create for me.
It is based on one of my favorite scenes that I wrote in my fanfic 'Our Hands Are Tied' (specifically chapter 11) and I just LOVE how this turned out. š„°