Days of Ephe

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the situation is incredibly salvageable, if we can get to the bottom of this once and for all. i don't want to have to keep going back and forth about this, valentines day is in 4 days. imagine getting dumped 4 days before valentines day. well that's a big possibility for me rn

✎ (❁ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈) ༉‧ ♡*.✧

they want to break up...again. this isn't sustainable. I thought we were past this. if we break up it's over. i can't be the only one fighting for us, literally everything is fine. sure some things could be worked on, but what's breaking up gonna solve. if we break up, a month from now they're going to invite me over (longer than last time) and they're going to miss me! they're gonna hope i make the first move and act all cool. im gonna hope the same thing. no wonder they're stressed out by the relationship! they're being a bystander to the dumpster fire instead of helping me put it out. they're checked out and pushing me away.

...and they broke my reverie by telling me it was unrealistic! who made them chief practical idk. but I certainly did not ask for their assessment.

but I wonder if a pair of missing socks would go unnoticed for a week, and the next a spoon from the drawer, or hair ties, maybe a pen from their desk

listening to love songs to supplement my desire to be sought after. fell asleep with matt maltese on repeat in my ear, hoping it would trigger a dream where we kiss or something, a reality where this isn't unreasonable is a cheap one, but it's all i've ever wanted

our next hangout will be sweet but not fulfilling, like an oreo... you're always gonna want another oreo, because even though oreos are good, they're not made of the stuff that keeps you full.

my phone broke last week so I had to get a new one, and i just put down my deposit for my study abroad this summer, hhhh

I like most music except new pop (including bedroom pop and anything with a uke), heavy metal, and bluegrass with lyrics.

at this rate, we're gonna need a deep freezer.

cooked neckbones, cabbage, and rice for dinner <333 should've made beans too but i was lazy and didn't take them out to sort and soak. no one else besides me like beans in this house anyways, so nothing was lost