ā i wonāt, āĀ he said,Ā confused as to how he was making things harder.Ā that had been their parents doing,Ā not his.Ā ā i donāt know.Ā not very well,Ā i suppose,Ā but who can blame her?Ā i feel rotten to the core,Ā and i didnāt even really see the body. āĀ hugo sighed,Ā and,Ā hit with a wave of resignation,Ā sat down.Ā he invited her to do the same.Ā ā iāve heard alexei avery isnāt so terrible.Ā a decent man,Ā whether heās capable of magic or not.Ā youāll be alright.Ā and if you arenāt,Ā wellā¦Ā you can tell me,Ā if you want.Ā iāll help as much as i can. ā
the trouble was he hadnāt meant he wouldnāt make things harderĀ āāĀ he hadnāt been thinking clearly,Ā hadnāt really been parsing his own words,Ā but now he saw that they were going to be hard regardless of what hugo said or did.Ā he was of half a mind to try turning the tables,Ā to make their parents suffer a lack of control for once.Ā but eva would never go along with it.Ā she wanted stability,Ā and hugo could no longer give it to her,Ā not in the way heād promised.Ā he decided to try anyway,Ā and if she didnāt like it,Ā she could go with alexei,Ā and learn to be happy with him.Ā ā i promise i wonāt breathe another word of this if you are in any way not amenable, āĀ he began,Ā ā butā¦Ā i donāt think i can listen to my parents anymore,Ā after this.Ā i doubt i can trust them.Ā the same goes for yours.Ā theyāre playing with our lives.Ā iāāĀ iāll understand if you think this is a mad idea,Ā i swear it,Ā but havenāt you ever wanted to justā¦Ā to leave?Ā and to make your own way in the world? ā
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ššššššĀ Ā šššššššššššĀ Ā ,Ā Ā sharplyĀ Ā meetingĀ Ā hisĀ Ā eyes.Ā Ā āĀ Ā iĀ Ā donātĀ Ā wantĀ Ā toĀ Ā talkĀ Ā aboutĀ Ā alexei.Ā Ā āĀ Ā sheĀ Ā doesnātĀ Ā evenĀ Ā wantĀ Ā toĀ Ā thinkĀ Ā aboutĀ Ā him.Ā Ā theyĀ Ā wereĀ Ā childrenĀ Ā ,Ā Ā andĀ Ā sheĀ Ā grewĀ Ā upĀ Ā ,Ā Ā butĀ Ā heĀ Ā didnāt.Ā Ā atĀ Ā leastĀ Ā ,Ā Ā notĀ Ā inĀ Ā herĀ Ā eyes.Ā Ā heĀ Ā wasĀ Ā cementedĀ Ā asĀ Ā aĀ Ā childhoodĀ Ā friendĀ Ā sheĀ Ā outgrew.Ā Ā theyĀ Ā wereĀ Ā childrenĀ Ā lastĀ Ā sheĀ Ā thoughtĀ Ā aboutĀ Ā marryingĀ Ā him.Ā Ā beforeĀ Ā sheādĀ Ā metĀ Ā hugoĀ Ā ,Ā Ā toĀ Ā marryĀ Ā aĀ Ā friendĀ Ā asĀ Ā dearĀ Ā asĀ Ā alexeiĀ Ā wouldāveĀ Ā beenĀ Ā aĀ Ā blessing.Ā Ā nowĀ Ā ,Ā Ā theĀ Ā thoughtĀ Ā repulsedĀ Ā her.Ā Ā onceĀ Ā youĀ Ā knewĀ Ā loveĀ Ā ,Ā Ā howĀ Ā couldĀ Ā youĀ Ā acceptĀ Ā anythingĀ Ā elseĀ Ā ?
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