* / lunar lacrimosa.

@enshijou NO WAY IN HELL THIS DOESNT MEAN THE BOY OF ALL TIME ISNT BEING ADDED APOLLO'S DODGEBALL GRANTED ME THIS VISION TWO YEARS AGO IM SUMMONING IT NOW TO BRING RY/OJI INTO P5X

i actually think i'm going to change my semi - hiatus to a full blown hiatus maybe. i'm not sure if i can stick to anniversary to be honest. as i mentioned, i think i have given up and resigned to the fact that i'll never have the enjoyment i used to. i've been unsatisfied for a while and sadly, i don't think the idea of expanding a little with multiple blogs helped as i thought it would have. i feel i have exhausted every avenue to make my space feel as it once did, and i think i've failed in that.

semi - hiatus. i may either lurk or just go into complete hiding for a bit to not be too constricting. once again, i do apologise greatly for being so upfront. i should have maybe wrote my prior post as a private post to get my feelings out as opposed to being direct. i understand this was a mistake i made and i do apologise greatly. i'll see about working on my other blog. i thought i was making progress with confidence, but it does seem as if i still have a little bit to go. things have changed and i need to make peace with that.

i think i am going to extend this to discord too. i'm tired of trying. i need to hide for a bit.

semi - hiatus. i may either lurk or just go into complete hiding for a bit to not be too constricting. once again, i do apologise greatly for being so upfront. i should have maybe wrote my prior post as a private post to get my feelings out as opposed to being direct. i understand this was a mistake i made and i do apologise greatly. i'll see about working on my other blog. i thought i was making progress with confidence, but it does seem as if i still have a little bit to go. things have changed and i need to make peace with that.

i think i am going to extend this to discord too. i'm tired of trying. i need to hide for a bit.

semi - hiatus. i may either lurk or just go into complete hiding for a bit to not be too constricting. once again, i do apologise greatly for being so upfront. i should have maybe wrote my prior post as a private post to get my feelings out as opposed to being direct. i understand this was a mistake i made and i do apologise greatly. i'll see about working on my other blog. i thought i was making progress with confidence, but it does seem as if i still have a little bit to go. things have changed and i need to make peace with that.

i think i am going to extend this to discord too. i'm tired of trying. i need to hide for a bit.

semi - hiatus. i may either lurk or just go into complete hiding for a bit to not be too constricting. once again, i do apologise greatly for being so upfront. i should have maybe wrote my prior post as a private post to get my feelings out as opposed to being direct. i understand this was a mistake i made and i do apologise greatly. i'll see about working on my other blog. i thought i was making progress with confidence, but it does seem as if i still have a little bit to go. things have changed and i need to make peace with that.

and yes, if anyone does feel as if they have to soft or hard block me, please feel free to do so. i would rather you curate your space and keep yourself comfortable if that is what needs to be done as opposed to continuing something that never will contribute to anything and hopes kept in wait. my main goal was always to be small and subtle. i think really though, it is just the nostalgia bug biting me again. i just don't want to be dead weight essentially. this is me just being hard on myself really, i do realise this.