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May was a Kim Jaehwan month. Went to his fan meeting, two pre-recordings for music shows, and a park festival for his set.

Still love Minhyun. Went to see Nu'est's concert twice two weeks ago just to see his beautiful face.

Still love Jinyoung. Went to his fan meeting yesterday. Am currently at day 2 of his fan meeting, 7 rows away from the stage. Got into his fan sign for next Saturday, so I'll soon be sitting across a table face-to-face with my child.

I've been finding conflicting information on this...

For the final concert on Sunday, I had the kindest section mates. There were 6 including me, and we were just so supportive. The girl behind me was a Minhyun fan too, so she'd reach forward and shake my shoulders and we'd scream together whenever Minhyun breathed. The girl to my left was an angel. She rubbbed my back the two times I sobbed into my lap, she fed me gummy bears, she helped me find my lightstick pieces when I waved it so hard that the top half poppped off, and she held and squeezed my hand at the very end as all 6 of us cried when the lights came on. Then before we left, we all turned to each other and said "블리님 수고했어요~." (블리님 is how we refer to each other on the fan cafe based off our fandom name 워너블)

And ugh that ending...

At the end of the Saturday concert, they climbed up to the platform where their individual lifts were, did their final group greeting, and were lowered down together.

But Sunday's concert, they did their final group greeting, and then had each individual member step forward, give a second final greeting and then walk back alone to their lift to be lowered away. At first, we thought they would walk back and wait for the other members to be lowered all together. You should've heard the scream of pain we unleashed when the first member was lowered alone. This continued, member by member, until the final member was left alone on the stage on his damn knees and shaking from his sobs.

Can't imagine the devastation?

Here's a picture:

The. Pain. I. Fucking. Felt.

I want to be strong, but how can I when they're in so much pain?