Sarah, 29. "I'm here, I'm queer, and I'm drowning in fear." Biromantic/asexual, she/they, permanently exhausted being of books and pain. DND nerd. Neurodivergent and chronically ill. "chronic illness blogging" is my tag for mental and physical illness posts. Ask me to tag anything.
idk if this is controversial or not, but I really like when non-professional writing like fic has hints of author bleedthrough when it comes to like, what different people assume is common knowledge. Like sometimes Iβll be reading a fic and itβll just be obvious that the person writing it is either obsessed with medicine or has been to medical school, because theyβll use terms that are just a shade too technical without explaining them. Itβs never the super specific stuff that theyβd know other people are unaware of, itβs always the things that once youβve known it for a while you forget itβs niche knowledge. Itβs fun because as a fanfic reader it reminds me of how this is a fun hobby community, where everyone has their own thing going on outside of fandom. Everyoneβs got their own specialties and they canβt help but write that into their work sometimes
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I hate that when youβre stressed enough your body just starts falling apart. I think it should realize youβre already stressed and donβt need that and start functioning better actually
Iβm going to level with you. I have listened to The Devil Went Down to Georgia for most of my life. We were a country music household, this was a staple of my childhood along with Johnny Cash, Garth Brooks, and that one Chipmunks country album.
I have no idea what βFire on the mountain run boys run/The Devil's in the house of the rising sun/Chicken in the bread pan picking out dough/Granny does your dog bite no child noβ means and at this point Iβm too scared to ask.
this is the key part of the song, that a lot of people miss. people have this misconception that the contest between Johnny and The Devil is about who is the better fiddle player. but it isn't. its about who is the better fiddler.
in a time before things like radios and record players, every time you heard music was because there was somebody in the room with you playing an instrument. and many, many, many social events involved dancing, which requires music. so, if you're planning any kind of gathering in the american south or appalachia, you need to find a fiddler. and the fiddler's job is to play music that everybody knows and likes and can dance to.
the mistake The Devil makes in his bet with Johnny is that he misinterprets the contest as being about technical ability, so he has this big flashy song. he plays fast and impressively with a band of demons playing unfamiliar instruments in unfamiliar rhythms. he's definitely more skilled at playing than Johnny, and thinks he has it in the bag.
but Johnny wins because the contest is about being the best fiddler. the song uses these lines mentioned above as a shorthand for saying that Johnny is playing these songs. Johnny launches into a set of the most popular songs, played well, and that's what gives him his big win. A good fiddler knows all the hits, and can read the room to know what to play next. The Devil loses because he completely fails to read the room, and doesn't know the right songs.
immortality as theft (you have to steal life from something else) immortality as parasitism (there is something else inside You that is keeping you alive and you become less of yourself more and more the longer it stays in you) immortality as violence (everything is trying to kill you because everything is supposed to die and the universe will always try to find a way to right the wrong that is You) you understand
#at least once a month I think about that one post about laminating a paper towel#and how that makes it immortal but also forever prevents it from fulfilling its true purpose#yes you will live. but at the cost of everything that makes you You
Please call your representatives: VOTE NO on the FEDERAL BOOK BANNING BILLS HR 2616, HR 8705, and HR 7661!
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There are currently THREE FEDERAL BOOK BAN BILLS aiming to ban all TRANS BOOKS from U.S. public schools! HR 2616, HR 8705, HR 7661
June 2026 / Maia Kobabe (a trans author, for three years in a row the most challenged author in the U.S.)
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HR 2616 threatens to cut federal funding from public schools if they βteach or advance concepts related to gender ideology,β as defined by an Executive Order signed by Trump in Jan 2025. It would also cut funding from schools unless they require βparental consent before changing a minor's gender markers, pronouns, or preferred name on any school form.β HR 2616 HAS ALREADY PASSED IN THE HOUSE! Please call your Senators to say NO ON HR 2616!Β
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HR 8705 threatens to cut federal funding from public schools which teach βdiscriminatory equity ideology or gender ideology,β as defined by two Executive Orders aimed at suppressing βcritical race theoryβ and trans representation. This bill is named after the late far-right activist Charlie Kirk, βThe Charlie Act.β HR 8705 has passed out of committee, but has not yet been introduced in the House. Please call your House Reps to say NO ON HR 8705!
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HR 7661 threatens to cut federal funding from public schools which offer material deemed βsexually oriented," treating any LGBTQIA+ identity as sexual content. It specifically forbids βgender dysphoria or transgenderism,β and βlascivious dancingβ (drag). This bill, titled βStop the Sexualization of Children Act,β has 22 co-sponsors and has passed out of committee but has not yet been introduced to the House. Please call your House Reps to say NO ON HR 7661!Β
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CALL SCRIPTS
βMy name is [name] and Iβm calling from [city, state, zip code]. Iβm asking [Senator] to vote no on HR 2616. I oppose HR 2616 because it would restrict studentβs access to books and it would specifically harm trans, nonbinary, and intersex students. Please stand against book bans and protect queer students!β
βMy name is [name] and Iβm calling from [city, state, zip code]. Iβm asking [Rep] to vote no on HR 8705 and HR 7661. I oppose these bills because they would restrict studentβs access to books and accurate history, and would especially harm BIPOC, trans, nonbinary, and intersex students. Please stand against book bans and support public education funding!β
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Author Maia Kobabe: If HR 2616, HR 8705, or HR 7661 pass, it would be almost impossible for any public school in the U.S. to offer or teach my books, unless theyβre willing to risk their federal funding. Students would be even less likely to learn about trans stories or accurate U.S. history.Β
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Please call your representatives: VOTE NO on the FEDERAL BOOK BANNING BILLS HR 2616, HR 8705, and HR 7661!Β
Follow AUTHORS AGAINST BOOK BANS on insta & bluesky for updates on these bills!
insta / patreon / portfolio / etsy / my books / print store / bluesky
Maia always makes these actions clear and accessible and I so appreciate eir work.
If you don't know who your Senators or Representatives are, you can use Ballotpedia's Who Represents Me tool! (Note: there's a field for you to input your email address on their page, but it's not necessary to get your results. They just need a mailing address to confirm who your reps are.)
Once you've got names, you can look up and save your Reps' phone numbers in your phone. I find this makes it easier when I'm wavering about feeling brave enough to place a call. Just pressing a button instead of going and looking up the phone number all over again makes it just a liiiiittle easier, and sometimes that makes the difference between calling and not calling!
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Drug name: Duloxetine delayed-release (generic for Cymbalta) -- 30mg, 60mg
Manufacturer: Towa Pharmaceutical
Recall alerts say the impacted medication may contain more than the recommended limit of N-nitroso-duloxetine, which belongs to a class of compounds classified as probable carcinogens for humans.Β
βThese impurities may increase the risk of cancer if people are exposed to them above acceptable levels over long periods of time,β an alert from the California State Board of Pharmacy explains. There have been no reported adverse effects reported in connection with the recalled prescription medication.
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This recall is classified as a Class II recall, meaning exposure to the product may cause temporary or medically reversible adverse health consequences, according to the FDA.
This is a voluntary recall, the article links to FDA files for it but it's not listed yet on the FDA recalls page.
Belphie is in constant need of mental stimulation, so there's not really a wrong way to interact with him. you can pick him up, flip him about, and put down him down facing the opposite direction, and he'll just go "hey, that was novel!" and approach you for it again.
meanwhile I have to tell people "if you approach Pangur respectfully and hold out your hand for her to sniff, she will scratch you and draw blood. please just let her lurk in the corner and stare at you."
We have Tinkerbell, and Tinkerbell has a psychological problem. She truly, desperately, wildly wants you to pet her and if she realizes you're about to pet her, the anticipation of the act overwhelms her tiny mind, causing a display of petting aggression that involves teeth as soon as she is touched.
Tinkerbell is also very soft. Petting her is a gift from the gods. It's just that you have to disregard her boundaries and all rules about petting cats. Just walk up and get the hell in there, no warnings, no offering her your hand. Don't give her the time to psych herself up.
There used to be chairs only at v few spots in the lab and they would always be there because in those spots the work required sitting down
Over the years we've gotten more chairs at more spots in the lab, and they're still always being moved around. I didn't understand why until I came back to work after having covid and being left with some post-covid symptoms. If i was not walking, I wanted to be sitting rather than standing. Any amount of sitting was better than any amount of standing. Everyone doing work in my lab is under 35
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my dad is very intensely involved a battle with his cityβs public administration over a playground they have tried to forcibly remove like five times in the past 20 years and DID remove once in like 2005 but then had to rebuild because my dad was such a pain in their asses and came through with undeniable receipts of the zoning plan from the 60s/the historic/cultural value of the urban planningβ¦. like thereβs a woman in the city office who is his arch nemesis. he is literally the daredevil of urban planning
I need a polite and effective way to say "hey your heart is truly in the right place and your anger is often righteous but I think sometimes youβre getting recreationally mad about things that are frankly not worth the amount of energy youβre spending on them, and every time you do this you're driving yourself slightly more insane with nothing to show for it," and then I need a way to broadcast that message through a loudspeaker to roughly 30,000 people at once, and THEN I need a time machine to send that message to my past self lol. and maybe a second time machine in case past me tries to be clever and sabotage the version of me who comes through the first time machine
I know this is meant to be funny but it actually makes such a good point about how ADHD and executive dysfunction can impact people in really major ways, including financially
Happy birthday to Lou Sullivan. He would have been 75 today. He had a great 40 years in which he left behind a legacy that still instills pride and acceptance in being trans. Imagine what all heβd have done with that extra 35 years.
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It is funny with bigotry where people unaffected by it act like that somehow disproves it. At an old job, talked to HR about a co-worker who kept calling me a faggot, and the HR person was like "Are you sure? He's never said anything like that to me."
Gee, Hetero Jessica, he's never called you a faggot? Then I must have misheard him!
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