To live and to be.

It's weird to think that every different person I kiss, the kisses are different. Yours is the only one that felt different. I actually felt something with you, and that's what upsets me the most. That what we shared was torn because of something was so stupid. I know there will be many others, but right now I only want you. It's sad to say you can't be a part of my life anymore and I really miss sharing how we love life and really want to live it. I miss the way you were so sweet to me. You didn't pressure me into anything. I like you for who you are. Even though everyone assumed you were a bad person, you're not. You just make bad choices. I hope you realize they're bad and stop because i'd hate knowing that if you don't stop, you're gonna die. My heart is broken, and it will be fixed sometime but I have never cared for someone so much. You showed me to be positive, to really love life, and I needed that. I'm thankful to have been so happy while it lasted with you. Thank you so much. I wish I could tell you how much I miss your touch but it'd be quite pointless at this point. Instead I spill my heart out on this page, where no one will see how I really feel. I miss your kisses. I miss your eyes. I miss laying in the grass with you. I miss how we wanted to do so many things, things we'll never get to do together. I miss sitting at Starbucks, talking about life and smoking cigarettes. I miss holding your hand. I miss the night we snuck out together and made out all night. I miss your smile. I miss it told people "this is my girlfriend." I miss it when you called me beautiful. I miss your voice And most importantly, I miss you.