Rattlesnakes & Moose

Call me Moose, this is a side-blog for my CDD based stuff.

I am (FORMALLY!! I am in active therapy) diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder (Polyfragmented DID) and other things.

I am a trans woman, person of color, and intersex close-to-male. I'm Native American, First Nations & Inuk (Native on both sides, my dad is from the US and my mom is from Canada/Greenland though.), Asian, Polynesian, and Syrian, I am also disabled physically and intellectually. (Alongside of Indigenous heritage, I am multi-nation/band/tribe, and an enrolled member of a nation.)

I have strong political stances and I will by chance post about them on here (as my main isn't... the most appropriate.)

If you can see my username, yes, it does say endosdonotinteract. Some endos I've seen lack critical thinking skills and don't read DNIs or tags. So if you're an 'endo', do not interact. I don't want to plaster it all over my house.

I block heavily, and I enjoy blocking people when I'm not working and pursuing meteorology and wildlife conservation.

I *do* have a Do Not Interact list, which I'll put down below:

(Pro) Endos, Tulpas (cultural appropriators. Tulpamancy is a real practice, but is closed.), Radqueers/Xenosatanists, Proshippers & Antishippers (I don't care, I'm anti-*pro*ship, not anti-ship.), anyone under 15, Polyminds (honestly feels like another endogenic thing.), anti-recovery, tcc, zero day, right-wingers, terfs, trash criteria, you spread misinfo about cdds, intersexists, you believe in 'blackwashing', you police terms I use, you hate medical terms for disorders

Side Note: 'Why do you list that you're an OEA/TBMC survivor in your tags? Isn't that dangerous?' I'm on the path of healing, and in fact I would want my demographic to include survivors of such just like me, I have witnessed and experienced horrors but I am in therapeutic treatment and have a safe support system. As always, be safe if you're a survivor with a not safe enough support system.

'Frequent Tags (Parts who will MAINLY use this site)'

Daghosjíe, Okwésen, Pakihtakonakâw, Ćehu'pa, Uumajuq, Aarluq, & Colorado ((each have their own individual tags))

'Rarer Instances'

Yonaguska, C.J

Send whatever in my Shitbox, if you try to change my stance about endos I'll still reply and call out the misinformation in your message. (And if you even send slurs/hate mail that tries to attack me or other demographics, I will also call you out.)

i cant control what they do and i cant disallow or control them and their internet usage (i dont know if anything happened, i hope not) but its really embarassing and i feel bad and i never see anyone talk about it

Oh, you're so SO welcome anon!

Of course, my welcome might sound sarcastic, and I deeply apologize.

cw. abuse and grooming mentioned under the cut.

Day Fourteen

"To whoever’s fronting; what’s your favorite item to have around when fronting? Is it yours or do you share with other alters in the system?"

Day Thirteen

"Has anyone ever noticed you were multiple before you told them? Do animals seem to know the difference in your switches?"

Day Twelve

"What’s the worst thing you’ve woken up to finding out your alter’s done? What’s the best?"

Day Eleven

"How much control do you have over switches? Do you know of any specific things which cause specific alters to front?"

Hello!

Haters are usually lame, yeah. They usually don't have anything better to do besides waste their time on attacking others. Surprisingly I haven't gotten a genuine hate ask in a hot minute.

For those curious as to how I'm posting "every day" for the 30 Days of DID thing: I'm scheduling the posts, and when those posts come out, the part that made the post might not be in front at the time.

I find it easier to schedule posts that are like "30 Days of DID" or adjacent since I won't forget,

Day Ten

"Have you ever done a system map? How extensively have you mapped your system?"

Day Nine

"What level of co-consciousness do you have? How do you feel your communication skills are within the system? How do you want to grow in those skills?"

Day Eight

" How did you first discover you were plural? Was it before, after, or during diagnosis?"

Day Seven

"How many parts do you know of in the system? How many know about each other?"

Day Six

"How do you feel about talking about the trauma which created your condition? Do you like to write about it privately or publicly? Why?"

Day Five

"How often do you switch? How often do you lose time? Talk a little about what dissociation is like for you."

The amount of suffering that me and others have had to go through to split this many is absurd, and yet it's a competition for them, a fun little game to achieve the "maximum score."

This isn't a game of flappy bird to get the highest score possible with your parts.