Random Boi Blog

throughout my many years online, whether it be deviantart, tumblr, discord, anywhere i was really active in, i want to show my appreication to everyone that had supported me throughout the years!

i can totally see this entire thing backfire really hard at me lel

it just occured to me, i havent updated this blog in like...... uh...5...years?

WELL HOWDY THERE

hi yes, i am alive, ive been posting on bsky and discord primarily and im currently working on a design showcase for my main 4 ocs: Matt, Chara, Alexia, and Lyric as they have been with me since my art career took off entirely

Lyric remains the oldest ocs ever made, and Alexia being the youngest due to being drawn the last....

Its taken ~14-15 hrs of non stop drawing (and i could be overestimating that time) to really get all of Matt's designs out! in this project, im also going to include a couple of designs that only appeared in a homerwork assigment and never before seen exclusive repectively lol

this is NOT every design drawn for matt, but is most of them! Following this, we start the first image from 2017, moving into the design made for DimensionalTale's poster from 2018, matt's 2018 Paint.NET design, a one-off traditional design somewhere between 2018 and 2019, before heading to 2019 and 2020 for SAI and CSP, and MORE!

each image has alt text saying which year and what program they were made with, i think I'm making this description after i have made the alt text lel

yes im alive, i just havent been looking at tumblr in do long xd

anyway, i do have bluesky which is where im more active at either that or discord im still donig art... slowly.... but i am posting on discord and bsky alot more than i will ever look back at this place so yeah

okay so i woke up and im not reallly depressed, all be im still tired but i think thats a given

overall my mind is still thinking about stuff but its not all bad right now even tho i havent taken any meds yet, waiting to get food before i take them so i dont end up being so sleepy throughout the day because one of my meds will do that if i dont eat good

lately i have been eating better than before which is quite surprising, but maybe im actually learning to eat good? i dont know anymore, theres still days where i barely eat but theres also days where i eat atleast 3 meals a day

so heres something i havent done in quite a while, a mental health update

i dont remember where i left off last time but lately ive been feeling more tired than usual while trying to program my body to wake up earlier and i think thats why its been like that, however i got my bike repaired so i might start exercising again and ride my bike around, tomorrow i dont have any plans so im gonna try to sleep in and attempt to get more sleep

as for how ive felt other than tired, well its been sorta in and out of depression, recently i lost my job due to personal reasons but im looking for work and i just need a day where im not so tired, but because i dont know what to do with myself ive sorta been in and out of depression and i *think* that my anxiety has been up but im not for sure on that

regardless i just wanted to give a brief update on myself because i know its been a hot minute and im finally going go therapy

howdy! i havent chatted here in so long, but i wanted to say that my commissions are opened! if you're wanting to get a reference, a desktop wallpaper, or icons of your characters relatively fast, i can do so within the first day! all funds will go to my june trip to see my girlfriend!

heres some examples!

you can either dm me here or on my discord, CrystalizedBean28#3920 and we can get something sorted!

heres the prices and the complete list!